i understand everything , dont make me feel foolish by saying i dont understand cause in actual fact hunny , i know much more then you'll ever understand . all i need is a second to explain myself , a minute to fix things up and maybe an hour to get things back on track , cause lately this has been too frequent , the fights for no reason, the unexplained absences , and sometimes i regret promising you from the very start . dont make me do it .
after scrolling through wedding photos, i came accross the decision that i do want to get married after all , with a gorgeous dress & beautiful bridesmaids . so as i began planning my wedding day , i realised for a short second that im much more of a planner then a someone who takes the chance and see what happens , i plan things in advance , i stress over little things that sometimes shouldnt be given a second thought , but worst thing is, after all the stress and planning, id proberly end up not doing it , so basically all the work was a waste of time but i do love the sensation itself , the buzz i get when im planning a party or what im going to wear to where , the feeling is almost invigoratingly sexy .
today judy was telling me how she sings herself to sleep . roflmaoo . judy singing . buahahaha, cbf . (L) LADY M