& no matter what happens its just nature taking its course & destiny finding its fate

happy birthday andrew ma :)

uglyface.

you ugly faced bitch . mind your own buissness and i wont have to get out of my way to put you back where you belong . who do you think you are ? . keep your comments to yourself , how lucky you are , that i am not allowed to hit you , cause if i could , id do your ugly head in , pray to god that his on your side , cause no son of a bitch could help you once im done with my shit .
right, now that all of that is off my chest .

i can blog .
i have 2 pages of alegebra to do , but for gracie lee i blog , im not in that mood to type , so its hard to find things to blog about .
my dad likes to cook fish , we have to eat it like 3 times a week , because my dad believes no one can cook fish better then he . i hate fish . i dont care if omega 3 helps with anything . my dad pronounces omega as , ( me - ca ) . im like wth . -- '
asians ! (x
oh wth , i blog for grace & she dosent even stay long enough to read the end production that takes me a gaziilion years to type up .
dont ' ttyl ' me jenny dinh . asswipe , dog me for vietnam .
my old room is currently under construction .
how wonderful :)
sorry ralph ,i know what i did . ♥
hbd- cindy , ann & kathy


(L)MELINDAAAAAAAAA;

When it comes to relationships , I feel as if I have missed out on something , the extra cute-ness of relationships , the corn to the corny , I don’t think ive fully experienced it . not saying that I want to , its just the relationship never seems to be quite complete . am I making sense ?

So today , I didn’t even have time to do my hair when keneth & Anthony came over , so I said ‘ be at mine at 8 ‘ I just thought they’d never make it by 8 , you know how guys are always late ? & to add the extra metro-ness to Anthony by saying ‘ 8 ‘ I thought he’d be at mine at 9 . jeez, so they were on time , we loaded the drinks and set off to Gloria jeans (8
On the way I took a few photos if I were to know the fate of my camera I would have taken much more . sniff - . anyways then jenny , judy & I went to woollies to get bottles . yeahyeah .
At school – say It , your all thinking it . im bad luck . when it comes to drinks . any kind really , if its in my bag it happens to explode . and then my bag is drenched & andy ends up carrying my shit . my camera & I have gone through many many things. & now that its gone .. I feel so lonely . RIP.SMILESUNSHINE.(L) right , whatever , wont tell dad till he gets me new phone cause he might lecture me on irresponsibleness . I love singing on the bus , me & jenny (Y) . bus buddies – Raymond , jenny , judy , Andrew , Anthony , emahd & I . yayyyyy . threatre , boring . cabraaa – my beautifuls – jenny&jenny(: . drink drink drink . taste like lemon after awhile .
Walked andys dog with him , it has poo-ing issues . yeeuuck . wee , wee , wee ,poo poo . Kelly & I matching pants ;D
(L)LADYM;

dosent it hurt so much more , knowing what could of been but never became ?

im tired . how horrible . had the best maths lesson out . ahaha . (L) ANDY ! . had to run home with 12 cruisers from chester hill station . fmd . anthony you owe me . nothing will / can ruin tommorow .the main thing ive been focusing on lately is blogging . nothing much seems as important , not that yearlies dosent mean anything to me , its just I cant go to sleep at night properly without a proper blogging sesh , sad ? I know . I have discovered that somebody has used a image of me without my consent , I understand that some people would like to use images of me to attract and advertise for there etc etc etc , but puh-lease could you use a appropriate photo of me ? I mean , sharon gets a perfectly nice photo where as I , I have a orange in my mouth . a orange . I just realise my dad never opened the fathers day present that I got him this year . fah , I searched far and wide for those socks and all you do is chuck the whole thing near the noodle box in the kitchen , some father you are . mummy made speghetti with mushrooms , is that right ? it dosent seem right , but tastes nice . I saw jodie & bella today , you girlies are so beautiful & anthony agrees . anthony you owe me . I don’t like the way I’ve been feeling lately , im all happy then not so happy , ive been smiling for no reason, just smiling cause I want everyone to think im fine , that im happy, when really all I want to do is not feel at all ,to be immune against the things that hurt, but I force a smile .sometimes im even happy, truly , I can laugh & for the spilt second I would have forgotton about you . but it dosent last long , everything reminds me of you – you did something to me . you took something . id like it back . but we both know , that’s never going to happen . I need to stop relying on false impressions as something more , when it could be much less . maybe if I do a jenny , I wouldn’t hurt at all.

so while im wide awake , you have no trouble sleeping
cause when a heart breaks , no it don’t break even

<3LADYMELINDAAA;

its coming up , one month from that day .
maybe i'll call you .
maybe i wont .
maybe i'll tell you ,
how much i loved you .
maybe i'll tell you ,
i gave you my all .
maybe i'll tell you ,
that you made me feel things that I never felt before .
maybe I’ll tell you,
that you were the first
maybe i'll tell you ,
that it almost killed me,
the days that built up to that day .
maybe i'll tell you everything
everything that I’ve been keeping inside lately .
maybe I’ll tell you ,
that even though the ride was rough .
and screaming took up half of it
& the laughs weren’t frequent enough .
I’d do it over if I could .
A million times over .

(L) melinda isabella thanh ngoc mai tram .

you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .

/ girl keep telling yourself that .

mt.

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I’ll be right there by your side – Wouldn’t it be lovely to think that someone would always be there for you ?

& so while I was sitting there waiting for the lady to make up her mind on whether or not she wanted gravy on her chips , I started making faces at her child who was sitting happily in her arms . she was the cutest thing . see , I have a love / hate relationship with kiddies . if you’ve met my brothers , you’ll understand why . they can be quite cute – then they drive me that close to insane . when I see other kids , I’ll put on the ‘nice’ voice and smile until I feel my cheeks hurt , I’ll ask them questions and compliment on mostly there eyes or hair . and only half of the time actually mean what I say ,of course all children are beautiful – everyone is beautiful , some more or less but in the end everyone is beautiful . anyway , I was nearly certain that this little girl I was making faces at was the prettiest baby I’ve ever seen, and im pretty sure her mum thought so too . I don’t remember being even half as pretty as her , she had the biggest blue eyes , and mine arnt big or blue . I can go on about what she has and I don’t , but then again I do that a lot . I like comparing , I compare like a crazy biatch on ice about everything , from boyfriends to houses , anything that is a possession , I know it isn’t a good thing but its almost natural to me , to see something and be like – ‘ oh I have that , but uglyier / prettier ‘ . the main point of this blog was to discuss why I want children one day , but I guess I over did myself , so, Id like to have kids one day . I want a few actually :) . my own army . ahaha , im going to take lots and lots of photos of and with them . I love photos . I believe they are the closest things to memories , I cant remember half the things I did when I was little , but apprantly judy had a video of me , dancing in a bikini when I was like 5 , what a freaaak . ahaha . the bikini had sunflowers on them ? O_O
Yes yes , back to subject , yeah , id like kids one day . the end -
(sorry to jenny who I couldn’t pick up the phone for – in order to make this blog I needed full concentration & to Ralph who I lagged with the replies )

(L)LADYM-

boy , you have no idea ;

attempted situps with mummy . fail . sighs -
worked like a crazy mad women today .
all body parts ache .
fmd .
picture above - the love i have for ' pinkie promises ' is indescribeable .
i make alot of people promise me alot of things-
but i dont half believe its a promise unless you pinkie it . :)
cbf to type . maybe later .
loveee lady m . (L)

That girl, is the gun to my holster
She's runnin through my mind all day, ay (8)

im not tired . so im going to blog . i love talking to vitchet on the phone :) . you make me laugh the way david & ralph makes me laugh . so now your one of my boys . (L)



rip.jacob richards -
i dont know you at all , but you were too young to be taken away .

saturdaysaturdaysaturday;

of course she's going to say she's over you -
but look into those eyes , you broke her .

today i woke up early, cause i had fcuk'd up dream, thats two bad bad bad dreams in a week . but the first one was more scary then fcuk'd . im not going to swear anymore, i dont like it when other people swear, so i dont think other people like it when i swear .

got ready & went to gloria jeans with vitchet , richie & ruby . copied homework then went to get easyway .

thank you -
david . who stayed on the phone with me while i was painting my nails and put up with my numerous trips to the toliet . it was lovely to catch up with you :)
vitchet . for going to gloria jeans & allowing me to have a 'sip' of your drink . just a sip mofo .
richie . for coming early , i know what a pain that is for you ;)
ruby . for picking up the phone in the morning . sorry sorry soryy ! \

i love that thingy my mummy made , it tastes nice (8
oh ralphie invited me to a drinkup -
i would , but . if you havent noticed darling , im not in the mood .
ive been kinda moody lately , lack of sleep it must be .
sighs -

lovelovelove-ladym(L)

faah, nearly had a heart attack cause blogspot didnt work . and im like full raging at the laptop . can you imagine me doing that ? (8
stupid homework, what a waste of a friday night , i could be sleeping , i love sleeping , if thats all i could do then i would .
today judy chucked a hissy fit , whata a lezzo .
i feel like phoning tonight ,i havent pulled a all nighter for awhile , fuccck, school is really back now . its beginning to sink in , im really not in the mood for school ; the studying and shit .
gala wasnt that bad , three girlies , made it worth it :)
kathy , dorothy & mena (L)
missing you - david & jayshun !
i shall blog later - study study study .

this isnt going to work , can you tell ?

i love you amy , baby girl head high <3

Truth of the matter is I never did you wrong, you’re going to miss me when I’m gone.

love ladym;x

there a things i'll never say & i know one day i'll regret it .
but building up hope just means a deeper fall .

& if you do too, just say so .

you give me this fuzzy feeling - do i give them to you ?

grace dosent blog . what a loser . today i put that missy on the invisible treatment cause she said i have no life . i do have a life . i just tend to waste my life on worthless things. i wanted/needed to go woolies today but noone would go with me & its like fudging burning , i dont like using the word ' fudging ' cause barakah uses it and it lost all purpose when she used it . dont you have those things , where you once liked until someone did/wore it then it just tuned you off ? . yeah same goes . no offence & all . id love to have a bitch sesh. with someone atm, id really like that . maybe i'll call amy & start bitching about everything . every motherf..ing thing . see, amy understands my need to bitch . ohh duncan my darling homo bestfriend , im sorry . faah someone cant keep thigs to themselves . last time im going to tell you something . when i say things like , ' ohh im never gonna talk to you again ' etc etc . i never stick with it . blah . i love days like today , im so lazy . all i did in tech was play freerice . i fed 1 & a half people ;D
omfg, cause of long i got told off by miss pitton , yeah so what if i can touch little boys, bitch ;@ . kelly hung up on me D; . the whore . shes proberly sexting tony .ahaha , viichet is gay :) . i love answering questions with a questions , if you've known me long enough you'll discover that .
' do you love me ? '
' do i ? '
:D
i love singing , alright shut up , so my voice can be utterly annoying . but but david says everyone can sing . everyone . EVERYONE . rightio , kelly thinks im the bestest best singing person ever .
i have stupid friends , good for nothing , i asked 11 people the same questions , 6 had no idea, 2 told me to google it , and 2 said a stupid answer and 1 , ONE , gave me a normal answer , fmd . oh wth , duncan's cousin is so hot , and duncan is so .. jokes ! (: duncan is beautiful & so is his cousin , *drools * theres a pink willy wonka nerd under my F8 key .

I like the way you walking if you walking my way,
im that red bull now lets fly away(8)


LOVEEE LADY M.

words are cheap;

it takes so little for me to fall head over heels for anyone /
well sorry babe , not this time
your sweet talk wont cut it .

(8) when it was just a fling before now, you’re the one
see all i did was blink twice, from my homie to my only

funny how things used to be .

baby , thought I needed you . but its gonna be alright.

right now , no one in this whole entire world could possibly be less then beautiful and to be truthful the girlies & boys that i know , are so beautiful inside & out , sometimes i wonder if i reach the standards that they so effortlessly achieve . corny ? . shut the fuck up .
im very happy .
actually , more then happy .
im super happy .
grace isnt online so i cant ask her for another word that means happier then happy .
pssst , i dont need her . ive got dictionary.com (8
ahaha, i love grace , i hope she walks home everyday so i can talk talk talk to her . shes so easy to talk to , for some reason .maybe cause were both incredibly nerdy & smart, see how similar people have the endless supply of things to talk about ? . must be . just has to be . melly & grace . buahaha.
so after school , i got bored . asked mercee to go out . she said yes . so there . we went roaming round cabra , like crazy bitches . getting high on redbull & winfield . oh baby . (L) MERCEE & GRACE .
And could anyone who has a heart shaped baking tray ( for cakes ) could you if possible , lend it to me , its for mummy & daddys 15 years anniversary :)

LOVELOVELOVE;LADYMELINDAAAA.

its the little things that mean the most ♥

i have a doofus as a bestfriend , see this morning at around 2/3 ish , he came to my house to be the first person to say happy birthday,yes he ran from his house to mine just so he can be the first to say 3 words . dear god , i love him . so then we sat on my verandah & waited for the sun to rise , even though it was soo very very cold , he stayed :)

today duncan & i were having a normal conversation when suddenly we began talking about gala days -

duncann says (10:00 PM):
*remember our first gala day....
duncann says (10:00 PM):
*..
duncann says (10:02 PM):
*u ran up to me and slap my ass O_O'then i ran off and fell off a fence....

he was thinking of my gentle touch ;)

love love love lady m <3

i was expecting it .
so , i'll be just fine .
did you know , i cried over you enough last night ,
i spent all night , just thinking -
i swear i felt my heart break .
& maybe one day, i'll tell you the whole story .
right from the beginning to the real end .
cause last time i checked our story was cut short to a happy ending
& in life , happy endings dont exist .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME .
(8) baby girl nothing can ruin your day , cause cause its your birthday .

thank you to david - the first person to say it & also sing it . & for staying on the phone , give fatty a kiss from me :)
starla - second person to call me , you remembered ! . thank you .
amy & mark - the texts , you make me feel special :)
RALPH - BUBAAAAAA ! YOU SHOW ME WHAT LOVE IS , YOU GAVE ME A BIRTHDAY I WONT EVER FRGET :)
jenny , kelly , kerrie , anthony , keneth , & richard - thank you , for the call & messages . love youuu guys a extra bit more (;
& to everyone else that remembered , thank you -
you made a shit day slightly better .
i love you all . (L) LADY M

ben is the bestest friend ever , just because ben is a ben & stacy .
two in one .
yeah baby ;)

tell me what you want me to do .

& maybe after all of this -
the date was left there just for the sake of it .

cause having something halfway is twice as hard as having nothing at all .

last night , i was scrolling through people to call , i needed to talk , it wasnt a want , not last night , it was a need . i just wanted to talk , let some of it out , as much as possible , i didnt know what i was saying , maybe it didnt even make sense , but ben listened . he stayed on the phone untill i got tired , untill the words that took me so long to say found its way out .
ben , thank you .
you have no idea what you did for me . (L)

fucking hell test my mother fucking patience you asshole

LADYM.

if you can lie , then so can i .

im going to stop kidding myself ,

thank you to everyone for today .
i love you guys ;

jenny
kelly
kerrie
raymond
keneth
andrew
anthony
edward
(L)

i understand .

i understand how this world works , not fully but enough .
i understand that people change ,
i understand that no matter how hard we hold onto something ,
if its broken then it is .
i understand that promises cant always be kept
i understand , that mistakes are hard to fix
& i understand if you decide to let go .

im sorry for what i did, i know how it feels like now .
to not get what your giving back in return

dick&ahalf.

thank you to the people who put up with me today - ( in order )

david
judy
evelina
grace

a extra thank you to judy who helped me through the long and tiring process of downloading some pirateship thing .
& grace who continued the random conversation with me

you lads kept me from talking to myself . much love (L)

i realise that blogging in the holidays may be the most lamest, sadest ,most utterly gay thing to do , but thoughout the holidays id like to change my vocubulary and also add as many words / use as many as possible . quote from starla -
'' *mel how could you do that shiet
*its like telling everyone your whole life ==' ''
so there . i have no life .
so today , i was sorting through photos cause i wanted to print them all & cover my ceiling with them , just to tick my dad off :)
i got all lazy half way and decided to leave it to another day, most proberly next holidays , or the next long car trip i encounter , i have been planning to print these photos since last year , there never seems to be the right time , right now im waiting for my dad to get home so he can make me pho . im sick of migoreng , argh .
geeez david , it takes time for things to be typed & even more time for it to make sense . i shall end this blog here . daddys home . PHHHO (8

DAVID IS SOOO AWSOME . LIKE OMG . DFAG & MGAY . (Y)

<3LADYM.

i love smiling at old people , they have such a warmth to there smiles .
thank you evelinda for letting me crash .
nothing much today /
villawood
maccas
etc etc /
evies'
food
sleep
phone
msn
:)

101th post :)
i love facebook, i find it nessary to inform others of my actions 24/7 .
all i ate today was migoreng .
im gonna have the worst pimples tomorrow , i cant be bothered to cleanse & moisturise , my whole body is aching and i have a headache . fmd . i swear baby sitting is like the worst form of abuse anyone can endure . faaah .
last night after mark hung up on me , i called jason . - im sorry i woke you up love ! . then jenny called me this morning and we were wcing trying to decide which shoes were better looking , etc etc . i think phoning with david is the best shit , we talk about everything , ahhaa . shower . buahahahahaaaaaa . isnt it great to have someone you can tell everything to ? :)
lovelovelove-lady m

hang in there :)

im back from camp . yay ! , camp wasnt so bad but then again it wasnt as good as id like it to be , oh well we cant have everything . my lord i came home to all this food , ohh i was so happy . my uncle has a new girlfriend , i like her very much . she cooks like everything for me , ahaha, what a sweetie . anyway so at camp michael broke my finger and when i told that guy , he was like , ' no melinda , your finger isnt swollen , its excess fat ' , excess fat my ass . i learnt to put up a tent , and sleeping on the floor is like , omfg . thank god , i have my bed to come back home to now . i have cuts and bruises all over my legs , when you see me , i'll tell you a story , each bruise / cut / mosquito bite , has its own tale . so at camp we made our on food and after like a gazillion years on the grill , the chicken looked sooo nice and minh was full proud of his chicken , but then it had like blood & shit inside it and i was like omfg , wth . im tired now . goodnight . lady m x

it isnt getting better .

i hate you . you made something change . you made that spark disappear . i cant have both i know . but you did it . you ruined it .

dear jason -

jason, you mean the entire world to me & beyond . please have a lots & lots of rest , and get well soon . i dont want you to be sick , not this sick . give me a time and i'll be at outside your door everyday that you need me . rain or shine . cause this is what love is . melinda&jason-us against the world .

i want to run - but only far enough for you to miss me (L)

i have a strong feeling about this-& if you know me . a strong feeling about something , anything is very un-usual for me . it means something new .

(isnt it cute ?) (L) MARK .

as of today , i discovered my mere presence and insignifcance to this world, there is nothing i put in and so therefore there is nothing i get out of this world. i simply rely on little quotes to get me through the day & if that fails i have my girls&boys backing me up -but wouldnt it be wonderful to be immune to the things that wiegh us down , the things that keep us awake at night and the things that make us feel insecure ?.
ive been sleeping alot , i have tutor homework as well, thursday came by so fast . i have camp on friday ,saturday & sunday .
goodbye lads - lady m

goodmorning :)
im at home today , so i have nothing better to do then to blog . im forcing my brothers to eat noodles ,cause i made it just for them, so therefore they must yummi-okie-licious .
walked all the way to chesterill to buy cake mixture , cause good for nothing boyfriend wouldnt do it . argh . anyways , spent most of the day talking to kelly on the phone & watching redtube at the same time . i wanna go shopping really bad , but it needs to be a girl that im shopping with . cause i dont like clothe shopping with guys , there really fustrating . but but then i wanna go moster with amy , soo then we can pick up skater lads (8
buahaha,
i like calling mark , 'the boyfriend' its very cute . even though we fight like crazy , but but , i think it adds spice to the pudding . dont ask . grace was on msn for like 2 seconds before she went off , what could she possibly be doing at home , so here i am singing by myself . how dull . im going to watch the boy in the striped pyjamas now .

love love love ladym

M021009M(L)

my mind lacks in the mental ability to write a proper blog today
so im sorry , i may not blog all holidays at this rate :)

yours -
lady m

but its over now ...
because in the past couple of hours , things havent been great, so my mind is not in the state to blog , its gone blah . so here goes to the random thoughts .
20 things about melinda;
1) i check out both sexes
2) im not bisexual
3) i believe in gay rights
4) i love rainy days
5) i love rainy days with hot chocalate
6) i learnt my 2 times tables in kindergarten
7) i knew how to spell 'birthday' in kindergarten
8) i dont believe in a god
9) i dont believe in people
10) i dont break promises
11) when i say 'swear' i mean it
12) pinkie promises mean much more to me then you think
13) i love cabramatta
14) i love asians
15) i love how asians are so typical
16) i hate the year 7's of 2009
17) im very bitchy
18) ive made lots of mistakes
19) i believe in one life
20) when i say sorry , half of the time ; i dont mean it

dont take anything to heart ;

lady m

im sorry .

in much consideration .

move on -


I ,Melinda can be the most forgetful duck you’ll ever meet, so to make my life much easier , ( blog wise ) , I decided I’d write notes of my eventful day , so when the time comes for me to blog, I wont spend forever and ever trying to remember what I had done in the last 6hours or so , so today in geography Raymond came up with the game ‘ look for the $5 in melindas bra’ so heres judy trying to grab what she wished she had . I no longer envy your soft flawless skin judy , cause everybody likes oranges ;D
So today that johnny boy , gave me $5 , nice old fella he is . Today we had the year 12 concert and to thinks that will be me in four years time. I sat next to the handsome Duncan & beautiful jenny , also behind MY peter , but I full felt rejected after declaring my love to Duncan , only to have a ‘ okay ‘ in return . Prick. So while jenny was drooling over HER peter, she was also dissng MY peter over the size of his head, which is NOT big, perfectly sized im very sure .
There are some songs that make me cry , songs that give me that “ sniffle “ , so while the year 12’s were singing , I got all teary cause judy is going to leave me soon , shes going all the way to … Tasmania )x
Anyway so I realised today I have the most ugly tans, t-shirt, shoe, thongs & flats. How yuck I cant wear any pretty shoes without that horrible tan line. Today he called . I hate it jager , I hate how your voice is so persuasive – you nearly had me . I hate how your utterly seductive your voice is . and whats worst is that I nearly forgot your voice , and now –today you had to call . I couldn’t go today jager , no reason in particular , I would have gone if you asked me , just like that I would have gone and god knows what we’d get up to , but I left you in the past and seeing you would mean re-visiting what took me so long to leave behind , im sorry if my excuse wasn’t good enough but that’s all I could come up with . Believe me when I say this, but it was so hard for me to say no. at least there’s a positive outcome for your call jager , you gave me something to blog about , I know how lame it is for me to write down points of things to blog about , but due my genetic lack of brain cells that’s the only way to go .
I feel particularly unloved today , how horrible .
happy holidays lads (: . (L) LADYM;