& maybe after all of this -
the date was left there just for the sake of it .

cause having something halfway is twice as hard as having nothing at all .

last night , i was scrolling through people to call , i needed to talk , it wasnt a want , not last night , it was a need . i just wanted to talk , let some of it out , as much as possible , i didnt know what i was saying , maybe it didnt even make sense , but ben listened . he stayed on the phone untill i got tired , untill the words that took me so long to say found its way out .
ben , thank you .
you have no idea what you did for me . (L)

fucking hell test my mother fucking patience you asshole

LADYM.