HURRY UP KENETH ! IM KEEPING THIS UP JUST FOR YOU !

AU REVOIR 2009 !

this is to the people who have been a part of my 2009 -
the people who have been there for me , the ones that kept my head up , the ones who stayed by my side , the ones who listened .
this is to the people who broke me , the ones who made me who i am today , the ones that hurt me most taught me something valuable & for that i thank everyone who was someone in my 2009♥

thankyou- to those who have stayed . - amy , jenny ,mercedes , grace , samantha , ralph ,jayshun , keneth & david
a; we've always been together , thick & thin . i feel honoured to call someone like you my friend , my bestfriend . thank you for sticking by me , listening to me and making everything seem okay . i thought i lost you this year ; when someone came into our lives but left as quickly as he enetered . but i didnt , our love proved to be much stronger then that .
j; we fight alot . we do . i wont lie . we argue about complete bullshit . but i love you . you make me laugh like crazy . you force me to smile . we have this endless supply of shit to talk about and a trillion plus one crazy things we do .
m; baby, i feel as if we've drifted apart during this year , high school more then ever proves to be a difficult time for both of us , and considering who we are and what we do , it feels different now , going out and just doing the things we used to . but babe , somewhere there , is the girl that i adore . so its fine to say were still strong for another year .
g; you would never guess , how happy you make me . your such a beautiful person in & out ; and even though its too late for me to be as pure as you , i have hope for my children one day , that they are just like you . your incredible .
s; babe , for the times you've stayed up just listening to my bullshit . my last minute phone calls & emergency breakups . my screaming , crying , shouting . my absolute everything . your my absolute everything .
when you girls are down , i may not be able to pull you up . but i promise to lay right next to you .
&
r; hunny buuuun sugaaa plum . i know this year was pretty hard . on both of us . i know i didnt give you enough time . i didnt give us enough time . but i want you to know , you'll always be a part of me . no matter where we are . remember our unconditional love ? . thats forver . i want you to know . that your the only reason why i smiled at the end of ocotober the 17th . you made my day . you did .
j; my big brother , i know right now its very hard for us to do anything but as soon as you whip those asses in hsc it'll be back to normal , wont it ? thank you for staying by me this year . i know i was so horrible to you .
k; you make me laugh . you make me smile . and i love how you make me feel when your around . your soooo nice to have putten up with me . for always coming out whenever i ask and buying my lunch for me ! . you mean the world to me & i hope in time we grow closer :)
d; your soo bright gee ! . i love the way you make my problems dissappear . its like KAAAABANG! and there gone . you make little non-funny things funny . i can talk about anything with you and you try hard not to judge me by what im saying . thank you soo much .

thank you- those who hurt me & left me .
e; you come first to mind when i think of lost . because you truely were the first person who left me and never came back . im so sorry the way i hurt you . we had a chance to fix things up but i ruined it . i hate you as much as im sorry . i hate you for teaching me something i didnt want to learn so soon in my life . i hate you so much but at the same time im so sorry that i broke us . and what we had .
m; you hurt me alot . but to say i never hurt you would be a lie . what i did to you - im so sorry . i really am . i loved you more then anything . lets leave it to that . no matter what , at that time , under the fireworks . i loved you more then you could ever possibly imagine . but now thats over and done with . i have to live with my mistakes . thank you , you taught me something i wont ever forget .
j; i thought we were really close , but i guess i was wrong . this year . you havent been a part of any bit of my life . i hate you for leaving when i needed you most . for when i needed a shoulder , you left me . you fucking said forever. its the people like you who make it so hard for me to learn to trust , to love and to care for . the doors shut . locked . dont come back to me .
j&k; you girls meant the whole world and beyond to me at one point , i could always talk to you , no matter what it was . i could always tell you things that i couldnt ever tell anyone else , no that its different , im thanking you for being there for me . even though ultimately you girls left . i cant say its not for the best . your happiness is all i want .
thankyou-to those who came into my life .
linda , helen & tn ; all of you are equally amazingly beautiful , thank you for taking care of me this year . im so sorry to have left without a proper goodbye . but know i love you all . with all my heart .
t&s; thank you for making me laugh when all i really wanted to do was cry . you dont know how much i adore you both .

& those who've tried to break me . im immune to your bullshit . so baby you can try all you want . im bulletproof .

i wish everyone a happy new year . i loved 2009 . & i only wish for better in 2010 .
stay safe during the holidays & smile no matter what the life throws at you .

note - i have profread this post like a gazillion times - so i assure you everything here is intential . i tried my best to conceal names as to not offend anyone . but if you happen to spot yourself here ; & dislike what i have written about you . then hunny go ahead and smd . i really cannot care less :)

melinda tram -

MARK , SON & BRANDON ! I THINK YOUR SEXY .

NOTE; I AM CURRENTLY PREPARING NYE SPEECHES ;
RIGHT SHUT THE FUCK UP IM COOL .
I WILL ALSO BE DELETING THIS BLOGSPOT ON THE 1STJAN2010.12PM.
THE SPEECH WILL BE PUBLISHED ON THIS BLOGSPOT FOR 12HOURS ONLY . FROM 1STJAN2010-1AM
SOOOOOO NIGGUHS . YOUR GONNA HAVE TO READ IT QUICK .
I WILL SPEND A INTENSIVE 2 HOURS SUMMARISING EVERY SINGLE PERSON WHO HAS AFFECTED ME THIS YEAR . MENTALLY PHYSICALLY & EMOTIONALLY . CAUSE EVERYONE LEAVES A MARK . MAKE IT DEEP OR NOT . I LOVE YOU ALL . THANKYOU FOR 2009 . BABES BRING ON 2010 ~!
-MELINDA THANH NGOC MAI ISABELLA TRAM .

SONISSHORT.

NO DICKFLOP YOU SUCK MY DICK .

so baby tell me ; is this the end of the ride ?

tell me we wont stop here . tell me we wont be left as unfinished . id like a ending .

tumblr me :)

fuckfuckfuck . fuck you !

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :@

i miss you . will you call ?

needles hurt
i slept
5hours
i took panadol
slept abit more
another pandol
it hurts
emotionally and physically
im dying
i hope you care

merci son ; for staying on the phone . even if all i did was rage and swear at you . thank you :)

my dickflop appears to have gone missing . where are you faggot ? :@

postponed trip to melbourne yuh .
looks like im staying for nye homies (H)

happy birthday peterfly (L)

booking hotels is fcuking bullshit ;@

so , forecast was on sale
50-80% on all handbags
$20 bucks biaatches .

julies over
i love julie
she thinks im wierd
she touches me
she made me do sit ups
shes scary sometimes
but i love her :)

im spending christmas eve at my uncles/cousins .
i will blog tonight
10minutes till christmas
i love the atmosphere on christmas eve
i cant complain this year , its different but i dont mind it .
my christmas dinner was chicken curry , sausages with bqq sauce & heineken , chocies and lemonade . my single uncle cooked . BUAHAHAHA .

m- wheres the tomato sauce ?
u- tomato sauce ?
m- yeah the red sauce
u- you mean chilli sauce ?
m- no tomato , TA MAY TO
u- CHI LLI
m- ==' nvm

so i took a break off blogspot to reply to messages on msn , i love msn (8
merry christmas blogspot 2009 ! yeeeeeeh(x
its just me at my uncles now
my mum left me .

im going to blacktown now .
goodbye :)

2SJ8DH&5DP.(L)

so tell me how im going to fly with a broken wing .. (8)

fruitloops =3

did you get my text seaweed ?

i like nice people :)

they got hair cuts ! :)

just believe you could do better ..

hehehe..i blogged alot (8

call me if you intend on killing time with me .

i like snow globes

i like seaweed :)

some men have the hairest legs . BUAHAHAHHAHAAA.

grace .. ?

tell me what to do ..

i hate christmas .

shemustbesobeautiful..thatgirlhetalksabout/

OIYOU!
WHATTHEFUCKDOIDOWITHMYHEARTNOW?

im on a mission to find someone beautiful ..

& you'll be the one she cant resist
- she'll be the tenth girl on your list

i never planned to fall in love .

aww baby girl ; i know its hard .
i cant even assure you , that your going to be okay
cause things like this , you really have no idea .
i know you miss him .
but hunny , you just keep that head of yours up .
horrible things happen , dont they .
you just hold onto what you have .
i love you amy <3

(um) M!SS DIN.     she wolf     says (12:47 PM):
*like after i hung up
- LADY MELINDAA   A     ; 97 (yn) says (12:47 PM):
*its okay babe :)
(um) M!SS DIN.     she wolf     says (12:47 PM):
*i went to get food
- LADY MELINDAA   A     ; 97 (yn) says (12:47 PM):
*food ?
(um) M!SS DIN.     she wolf     says (12:47 PM):
*then i looked at my comp
- LADY MELINDAA   A     ; 97 (yn) says (12:47 PM):
*YOU HUNG UP ON ME FOR FOOD ? I SACRAFICED MY SLEEP FOR YOU !

that bitch .

hey keneth are you reading this ?
BUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

“Forgive me for liking you too much, I’ll forgive you for not liking me enough. Forgive me for the loud racing of my heart, I’ll forgive you for not hearing it. Forgive me for finding you amazing, I’ll forgive you for never noticing. Forgive me for wanting to be with you more than anything, I’ll forgive you for avoiding me. Forgive me for being so pathetic, I’ll forgive you for taking advantage of it. Forgive me for not being able to let go, I’ll forgive you for never holding on.”

i have a i love you list on msn . if your on it . i must love you :)

for you - i'll be looking from the stars .

so now that you know how a broken heart feels like ;
tell me was it worth it from the beginnning ?

dear ______ ;
i know i cant help you , but i know i should be trying . thing is im not . i cant . there no explaination as to why . i cant think straight . things that are coming out , they dont mean a thing . i know your feeling like shit , because im feeling the exact same . some sister i am . and you were there for me every step of the way . im sorry for being so worthless . i really am .
iloveyou-ihopeyoufeelbetter.(L)

CONGRATULATIONS MEGAN&RAYMOND .
i think its about time :)

im sick , pass me the butter menthols love .

michael & jeramie :) / dinner

if only all boyfriends did this .. :)

• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
• give her one of your hoodies to wear so everyone knows shes yours.
• leave her cute text/notes.
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• forgive her for her mistakes.
• look at her like she’s the only girl you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she’s sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she’s sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she’s important.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.
• and when you tell her, love her like you’ve never loved
someone before.
• and,when she runs up at you crying…the first thing you say is…”who’s ass am i kicking today?”

i want to be the last thing on your mind before you sleep .

loving you is like lighting a candle in the wind ..

how im feeling , i dont even know .

I can't catch my breath cause you take it away.
The best writer in town could not find words to say.
How there's so many things I want to get to know.
I wish that I could stay but I got to go so I'ma call you tonight. (8)

awww , (x

sweetie your beautiful

im standing on a line between giving up & see-ing how much more i can take ;

dear ________ ,
all i want to know is if you feel the same , cause what your playing around with is my heart . if you dont know what the fuck your doing then please drop it. it'll break , sure , but atleast i'll still have the pieces left . you confuse me , you really do . & i hate confusion . say it straight . please .
love always - melinda ♥

.. so today was frickinn' crazy ass hot , but i wanted to go out . so the beautiful shyndie volunteered to put up with me for a couple of hours . YAYYYY . trained it to villawood . meet up with mercee,grace&+ friend . theeen went to eat ice cream with shyndie , ohh loved the ice cream ey shyndie ? sexy shieet . trained to cabra so miss shyndie can buy cancer sticks , waited for honky ponky , the tanktanktank boyfeee [;
DOGGED , him )x for chesterhill/ & bankstown . ahaha :)

im not exactly sure whether i should be happy or not . sure i had great time with shyndie & girls , but theres always got to be something ruining everything .

7DEC.09

To tell you the truth I don’t have much to offer. But I’ll still give you everything I’ve got, even if it’s barely a thing at all. I’ll give you late nights, long hugs. Someone to talk to, someone to care for, someone who will always be there. A hand to hold, somebody to lean on. And if that’s not enough, just know you have all of me. I hope that’s enough. (L)MELINDA.

THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT .
full wanna go out but the weather is like ugly . fml . i want to go out ;@
ARGHHHHH ;@
ralph ralph ralph , where are you ? :(

baby m ♥
i know your hurting , but girl you dont need anyone that dosent need you .
you'll make it through this one , like you made it through every other one .
i love you , with all my heart i do .
im here , rain or shine :)
cause this is love - 97 (L)

Boy: I have two words to tell you.
Girl: What?
Boy: I love you.
Girl: Isn't that three?!
Boy: No because 'you and 'I' count as one

i got to let you know , i got to let you know -
that your pretty little smile is incredible (8)

happy birthday baby vy ; too bad your in vietnam eating frog legs and not here on my bed with me [; ♥

MTRAM(L)

I know you miss him and I know you think you can’t be without him. I know he told you he loved you and I know he said he'd never leave. I know although you knew you shouldn't have believed that, you did and I know you want him more than anything. I know you spend extra time doing your makeup and hair perfect just in case he looks your way and I know secretly, you want to bump into him anywhere you go. I know you get that feeling when you walk past him and I know you just want him to look your way. I know he called you his baby and his number one and I know he told you he loved you at the end of each of his texts. I know he told you after he's caused you so much pain. I know your face lights up at the mention of his name and I know that you were his world and I know he made you happy. I know you re-read the saved texts from him that you should of deleted ages ago and I know you can’t figure out what’s making you still like him so much even you’re scared to talk about him to your friends because you don’t want them to know how amazing he is. I know you still get that tingle feeling if he so much as looks as though he's looking your way and I know that the whole day you'll be analyzing what that look meant. I know you know he used you and I know you always forgave him for all his faults no matter what. I know you smile bigger, talk louder and laugh more when you see him anywhere near and I know that’s because you just want him to notice you again. I know you compare every guy to him and I know you'd do anything to prove your love for him. I know you take out his mistakes out on everyone but him and I know you don't mean to. I know you read your saved msn conversations you had with him every night and I know you cry every time. I know you think you won't care for anyone as much as you care for him and I know you tell everyone you’re 'obviously' over him. I know that you don't know that I can see right through that. I know you listen to the songs that remind you of him every night and I know you cry yourself to sleep. I know you'd do anything to be perfect for him and I know if it meant you had to stab yourself the next day after seeing him, if it meant spending a whole day with him, you'd do it. I know you can't figure out what’s so different about him to all the other guys you've been with previously and I know he's the reason you look in the mirror too much. I know you get that feeling every time you get a text, just because of the slight chance it might be him and I know anyone can see the hurt in your eyes when you find out it isn't. I know you can’t figure out why he left you and I know you'll never get an answer to that question. I know that. Trust me.

MTRAM.

FORGET ME NOT .FAAAAH TEEE YOUR A FRICKINN' CUTIE ! [;
ahaha, full use that sweet voice on me , sorry i wasnt talking much /= ♥
i cant sleep for shit . fml / tutor hw :@
ear hurts / thank you miss jenny for the spray :)
dads buying food for me , ahahha . YAYYYYY / food (8
cabraaaa tommorow (H)
junkie aye ? i knw your thinking it . spit it out .
miss fruitgnet can smd , ugly whore .
ahahha , no arvo ;D
dying hair soon , fuck the piercing D;
ILOVEGRACIELEE&JENNYDIN&ANDYVO(L)

melly.

See, I just wanna hold you
& never let you go boo,
Girl we could do, whatever you wanna go do,
Shorty you could be in control (In control),
Whenever it's raining,
We'll just stay in,
Kiss and playin' and talking till the AM comes,
I got too much to show, (8)

03DEC09;

I lied when I said I didn’t know what I wanted. I wanted you to be happy, with or without me. And I lied when I said I wanted someone else, I wanted you to fight for us, like I’ve been doing since day one. And now that I’ve lost you, I’ve been lying to myself, I’m not better off. I miss you. ♥ melinda

YEAH MOFO 5TH&6TH PIERCING . YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH ;D

Your Love Is Like Weed, Baby Got Me Stoned (8)
I laugh too easily & I forgive pretty quickly . I hate that about me . I cant pull straight faces , even though I should , there are those people who have the ability to make me laugh my ass off and make me forget that im suppose to be angry with them , id be like faaaaah im angry with you brooo ;@ , but , id still be laughing ? .
shouldn’t have eaten those m&m’s full give me tummy aches & shit .
my lip is bleeding . eww .
I believe in gay rights .
I do .
I believe that everyone has the right to love anyone.
skies the limit .
(L)MTRAM.

the conversations between us ; tell me im not the only one reminiscing /
if we werent the way we were , if you werent the way you were . then i wouldnt be missing us , missing you . this much .♥

TONGUE PIERCING / WEDSNESDAY 2WEEKS / BANKSTOWN / 65$ :)

love can smd .

' Where my heart still is, I admit I'm not too sure ' - conversations between us

tell me a story . where theres a girl and a boy . where they fall in love and then live happily ever after . hah ! . you want me to tell you a load of bullshit ?

girl: hey
boy: how are you?
girl: im fine, how are you doing after we .. you know broke up?
boy: im alright .. i still love you.
girl: i loved you, and you let me fall.
boy: i tried to catch you i promise.
girl: yeah you tried .. but i slipped through your fingers.
boy: its because your so delicate. if i could i`d pick you back up and never let you fall.
girl: its too late.
boy: no its not.
girl: whatever, your just using me.
boy: id never use you, i love you.
girl: why do you love me ?
boy: because i just do. because your perfect.
girl: but i dont want to be perfect, nothing in this world is perfect.
boy: fuck the world, your perfect to me.
girl: *ugh, shrugs her shoulders and walks away*
*girl trips over rock, and boy runs to her .. catching her before she falls and hurts herself. meanwhile, boy falls down with her in his arms scraping his knee on the hard cement badly*
boy: see, i told you id always catch you.
girl: i knew you would.
The girl just pretended to trip over, seeing if the boy would catch her. she wanted to know if he would get hurt for her and keep his promise. he did, and thats why they were in love. because they both had faith for one another and believed in the love they had*.

dont ask me where i get this shit from . - melinda

i gave you my all , couldnt you see that ?

grace im blogging for you , i dont know why though , theres nothing to blog about . theres a car accident down my street , that means its down your street as well grace . well i was going to walk down and see how many people died , but im not wearing appropriate clothing for the occassion . im tired , i need more sleep . i really wouldnt mind going jogging if raymond came along :) but noooo , lazy kiddo . im so sorry mercedes , we really must catch up , its been too long .
nts- piercings on thursday .
& tongue piercing is being put on hold until i find enough money :@

melinda

If I forget to get the door
Remind you that you're beautiful
I know my detail requires more attention
If I ever hurt you it's not my intention
Cause we're gonna make our mistakes
Find out how much your heart can take
But I know that you got my back
And baby I got yours
(8)

I can see the tears forming around your eyes.And I can see your fears building up inside.I can see you’re confused and tired of life.I can tell you wish everything felt right.I can tell you’re sad and just want to be held.I can tell you fake that smile and that you’re going through hell.I can tell you’re afraid and fed up with the pain.I can tell your feelings are hard to explain.All you need is for someone to come along.To take your fears away so that they’d be gone.Someone to keep you warm when you’re shivering in cold.With someone whom your future will unfold.Someone to take your hand and hold on tight.Someone who will accompany you throughout the night.Someone to wipe those tears from your eyes.Someone who will be faithful and never say goodbye.Think real hard and you’ll figure out that someone is me.I’ll make you my everything,to my heart you’ll have the key.I’ll give you happiness I’ll make your fears be gone.Because it seems like in this world we all need that someone to come along

dear god -
please help me .

-melinda

but everyone else seems to be moving on , just fine .

had a heaps embarrassing day today ;$
OMGGGG ><
so today i went to this beauty salon place to ask the prices for piercings ;
the door was closed and next to the door had a sign that said ' ring doorbell for assistance ' and there was a doorbell so i rung it , and i kept looking inside and there were two people sitting down on the seats but no one near the receptionist place . so i stood there for about ten minutes , every now and then attempting to slide open the door and having that lady on the seat stare at me , about 15minutes later a lady came out from the door and was serving the lady who was on the seat , agitated , i kept ringing the doorbell but no one looked at me , i decided that when that lady came out i could go in , after she got served she PUSHED open the door and i took hold of it , THEN . THEN she said ' the door was open the whole time you know '
FML. ;$

once upon a time ; i had you ♥

false hope

& you knew it was due to happen
yet you let yourself though it .

the saddest part

truth is , there a certain things that will never fade away untill the heart stops beating & last breath is taken .

1 2 3 ..
HAPPYMOTHERFRICKING15THMARK! ;
we've been through shit aye lad ?
the ups & downs
thrills & spills -
the ride of our lives :)
you were there for me , when all i needed was someone to talk to ,
you made me laugh my ass off , your cool like that ;D
what would i have done if your mummy never made you ?
i wouldnt be the porkroll to someones dimsim , catch my drift homie ?
you deserve nothing but the best & your going to have nothing less then the best today , fuck like theres no tommorow baby boy , cause your only the 1 to the 5 for a year . heres to us - for making it through & to you - on your special day .

& happy birthday sonic :)

(L)MELINDATRAMOFO.

happy birthday my beautiful ruby :)
goodbye ms vy kieu , i will miss you
thank you ann for notes -

i love you (L)

its been awhile since i've seen that smile of yours -

exams can smd . fahh . too tired for this shit . i love you ann :) / your oh so thoughtful . i love thoughtful people . so last night even though i was meant to be studying i was on the phone & youtubing with miss jenny . drools * his soooo hot [; / and its sooo gay cause everyones listening to that one song , and i wouldnt mind it but its not in english so WTH . LALALA, wedding dress :)(8)
science exam tommorow , looks like another trip to keneths in the morning - sighs .
ohhh shops with jenny & the boys tommorow , makes everything worth it . YAYYAYAY- blue dress from valley girl . YAYYYYYYY . :)

ilovelovelovethefagfacethatmakesmydaywith2words- (L)MELINDA;

& forgetting is the hardest part ;
i miss julie :(
come to sydney soon ! (L)

whatever you like .

& the biggest hugs to the darlings that were there for me -
samantha , mark , jason , linda & ralph -
i love love love you guys with all my heart ♥

i wanted to tell you , you crossed my mind today .
a few dozen times maybe even, a couple hundred .

thank you to those who were extremely understanding of my change of mood today , thank you to keneth who bought me lunch , once again , anthony for buying me drinks , andrew for giving my lollies and last of all ,that boy for the lighter :)

lovely see-ing , shyndie , grace , dennis , tylar and and , that boy from moonie :)

maybemaybemaybe;
(L)MELINDAAA;

whered you come from on this lonely night -
swear god must have made lightning strike .

studying is horrible , i keep getting distracted . read somewhere that oranges help you concentrate , so i ate 2 . but then it hurt my mouth after wards , is that normal ?
sigh - andy im sorry . (L)MELINDAAA;

i know you've never had a man like that .

study ?
study my ass .
fah cant study when andrew , jenny and keneth .
fail fail fail . )x

your so complicated . ffs , why cant you just tell me whats wrong .
(L)MELINDAAA;

i love toast and coffee in the mornings ,
so im going to study on my bed , theres a comfortness to it all . amazingly enough, my parents havent told me to study at all , even after i told them i have exams , they assume im full ass serious about it just cause i stuck the time table next to my laptop (8
im really going to try and study today .
like full hardcore study , like crazy study :)
yayyy study , im actually happy to study , i havent done it for soo long or properly , sooo yayyyy . ;D im a spaz , shut up /
first shower , waxwaxwax then i'll study .
goodbyeee :)
(L)MELINDAAAA;

S(HE) BE(LIE)VE(D).

NOV1309;

& if i had you ..

after school , raymond , keneth , anthony , andy , andrew & i went chester hill to buy food . felt so pimp (H) . then went park , sparked up . ahaha andrew ma your the cutest , sitting there eating seseme seeds . ROFLMAO . went library - anthony & keneth , puh-lease keep your hands to yourself . i left my mark on you boys . you deserved it . studied for like 10minutes -- '
learnt a new world , metamorphise rock . merci keneth&andrew for taking the time to teach me how to pronounce it . ahaha . had pizza for dinner cause dad was too lazy to cook . happy birthday anthony le's grandpapa & edward . ahaha i can see your pindick andy vo ;D

thank you keneth for lunch & anthony for the mango thing (x

(L)MELINDAAA;

it may mean nothing to you , but understand it did to me .

there was a day ..

sharon ; it dosent look like your wearing pants
melinda ; im not
- silence ;D

it was freaking hot so i didnt wear pants to tutor . its not as bad as you think , really . i wore undies . and as far as im concerned my shirt covered my bumbum , so it was just like wearing a dress , melinda style [;
faaah that vy biaaaatch took my kindergarten photo ! i want it back ;@
GRRRRRRR.
mum takes like frickin 15minutes to buy butter from woolworths , there arnt even that many brands to choose from geesh . there are christmas trees all over chesterhill square , there so pretty . whilst waiting for mum to choose which butter was cheaper , i was wondering how long it would take me to run off with one of the trees , shove it in the boot and come back to woolies again .
so i was at canely today with joanne and there was this lady who kept telling me to buy yoghurt from her . LIKE WTH . i told her i have no money , so she goes ' special price 11 for $10 ' rightioooo . sorry jess for the misunderstanding , full forget your birthday and shit ey ?
as i promised , kevin la has blogged about me , therefore in return i must advertise his blogspot - http://kevinnnlala.blogspot.com/
clickclickclick!
oh jeez andy tell me to download that song ..
and it wasnt even fricking english -
sorry but id like to stick with things i understand . blahblahblah .
thank you hamidi for notes (:
your writing gives me headache .
SHOTGUNSHOTGUNSHOTGUNKENETHHHH!;D
i felt special to have been chosen to do a survey .
i like being chosen for things .
it makes me happy :)
i know i wanted to blog more , but i just cant remember .
oh well . yum yoghurt :)
i love yoghurt . yum yum yum .
(L)MELINDAAA;
your smile brightens my day :)

& you've got a smile that can light up this whole town - peterpeterpeter .

shining .

if you want your heart intact , give it to no one - cs lewis
oh wth i want a ' i love blacktown ' shirt too .
thats not faaair !
i want one ! D;
so what if i dont love blacktown as much as i say i do ?
its like my third home -
sefton , cabra .. blacktown (x
being in love is smiling for no reason .
you make me do that alot (:
so went walking with andy & ralph ..
while we were waiting for ralph i decided id sit down on a chair , but there was a fricking bird stuck on the seat and i thought it was dead and started screaming , but it wasnt , it was like stuck .. so the brave andy vo pulled it off the seat but it still couldnt walk so some old man carried it and put it in a box .. :)
ralph took half my fricking deck . fcukwit ;@ ' the more i smoke , the less you smoke ' blahblahblah.fuckyou.
im so cool ,
wore my pyjamas round sefton , i look so hard in my pink boxers (H)
yeah yeah hamidi owes me science & english notes ;D
made ralph bleed >;]
you deserved it
jason's gaaay , ' i cant feel my bum '.
love crystal hair , do anything for that shizzle mofo (L)
<3MELINDAAA;

i'll be there for you until the very last day (8) .
stay here forever - donnie klang ft.frankie B (:

little girl dramas;
the bitch fights
the back stabbers
the shit talkers
keep your head held high baby girl -
these things blow over
love melinda thanh ngoc mai isabella tram ♥

wont say im sorry

oh where does grace get all these corny quotes from ?
there absolutely the cutest (x
so i googled ; ' corny quotes '

grace , omg . do i need to install a new blogspot thing ?
cause cause this one is wierd ...
anywaaay :)
went library today with the study buddy , i think my study buddy is the sex -
yes yes , you are the sex [;
i get distracted very easily , im going to fail science , mother fkurhh ;@
maths , maths , maths - need to do maths .
kelly kelly kelly ! remember - sisters keeper ;D
fah do you know who asks stupid questions ?
anthony le does .
his very very stupid .
loserrrr :)
miss soljic your a mother freakin' cow & a half , yeah yeah tell me off for not doing my work when i cant see cause your in the way, fah .
and bitch ? i dont give you any fucking looks .
i love english , it just flys by (H)
not quite sure if i have my periods or not ,
see , ive got the blood & shit
but it isnt quite enough .
so doctor duncan , what do you suggest ?
last time i told judy my periods were irregular she said i had vaginal cancer .
stupid japanese :)
i can sing this big bang song -
fly fly - sky ? booga booga yoooo . (8
phone bill is massive . sorry mummy & daddy
just know i love you both sooo much :)
intensive studying starts .. now / fmd .
(L)LADYMELINDAAA;& i just want you to know , you mean this whole entire world ♥

& when they ask you about our love , tell them its timeless , its timeless (8)

fcuk you maths homework , im too tired for this shit . ;@ im not in the mood,can you tell / , son of a female dog , piss me off . ‘’don’t you know anything ? ‘’ quote from some movie that I thought was extremely cute . anyway, im going to tell you this once , when you get drunk off your ass and say shit you’ll regret the next day, im sorry but your gonna have to face the consequences , I don’t care what day it is today, don’t go making me look bad with the ‘bestfriend’ speech cause its not working anymore , am I being bitchy ? bossy even ? hope so .

baby just stay with me – foreveeer .

fml . english , maths & science .

melinda.

promise me no tears ;;

farout , tired tired tired . cleaned room like a mad women , suppose to be studying . sigh -
horrible day , my throat hurt from talking to grace all technology , worst cramps at recess & history , then gets told off in french and to top it all off , sits next to the smelly anthony le in english D;
thank you grace & megan for panadol & period pain tablet ? (x
ANDDD PETER for water :)
kelly&judy- oh babys please dont cry - i dont like it when you girlies are sad
turn that frown upisde down :)
sorry to those who had to put up with my mood swings / i love you all .
must now study .
happy birthday mercedes (L)

-MELINDAAAA;

091109;

to my baby girl on her special day - mercedes charnce rushton (L)
today you blow 14 candles out . 14 years of your life has taken you up to this point , where you are now is what you've achieved in 14 years , where i am now is because of you ..
we've been through so much , from the little graffetti on toliet doors to cutting seats on trains . we've seen eachother at our worst & our best . from the boy crushes to broken hearts , the phone calls to the wedding ..
i want you to have the best mother fucking day out -
dont let anyone bring you down - no one .
its your day & you deserve to have the brightest smile on that gorgeous face of yours - i love you now , forever & always ..♥ melinda tram
i'll meet you at the alter [;

i wish i could say something that would make you trust me ;
but if you give me time , i can prove it to you ,
cause if i had a second chance i would never need a third .

my life relvolves around the the most littlest things that make breathing worth every second. i love love love & cannot possibly live without ;



THELATENIGHTCALLS; theres something incredibly irrestibly seductive about the late night phone calls thats got me hooked . and not just the call itself but the equally seducive person on the other end [;

&

THEBESTFRIENDS; i dont tell you enough how much i appreciate you guys . if i could have it my way, id have you guys right beside me always . but as life would have it , half the time were miles apart but you should know you always have a place in my heart

to be continued -
this blog will be finished in due time :)
(L)LADY MELINDAAA;


i never knew why - maybe if i listened , see what was behind those mother fucking words, i would have seen too .

thank you kelly , jason & duncan

kelly- being there from the beginning :)
sorry i called your corny-ness gay .

jason- i dont know whered i be without you by my side .
' he wont steal your heart , you'll give it to him '

duncan- why is there a tampon up your nose ?
your gay bay ;D

love you lads ; <3 MELINDAAA .

Its not up to me anymore
If you want me in your life
You’ll put me there ;

melinda tram .

no i dont want to loose you ,
not now
not ever
so please would you just hold on that little bit tighter ?

happy birthday baby linda :) / im so fucking tired , farout . i love the way ruby does my hair , even if it hurts . alot . and i know ruby loves the way i sing . ahaha . aww broo , mehmet id love to get wasted with you tonight , but maybe if you drove your mercedes my way , then id roll with you - just tonight [;
there are just a few things i cant go through the day without , its like my day isnt over yet until ive had a coffee , or my two showers , or my hair drying . etc etc .
amy is a lucky whore ;@ . gets whatever / whoever she pleases . i envy you baby girl :) / have fun with mr tanky .
fah need to study for tn tommorow , arghhhh )x
ralphy boo - im sorry we havent spoken for .. 3 days ?
i know bestfriends tralalala- but its harder for us aint it ?
but s'all good ,we've been through worst [;

/ dear ----- ,
whatever it was that i did , im sorry . i am . swear . if you dont tell me , theres no way i can fix it. then again , i doubt you'd tell me , so i guess we'll get over this one without really knowing why it happened to be .
lately you've meant alot to me , alot meaning , alot . so when you ask me how much i love you , alot is all i can say .
melinda -

explain yourself .

causeee when i leave for the night , i aint coming baaaack (8)

today i had office messenger , that whore of a bitch elias told me off like crazy .
socks , shirt , sleeves , nails , bracelet . blahblahblah . fuaack you . alright ?
thank you to - evie , alan & andy . for allowing me to swap blocks from time to time . & sorry for being a tad bit laazy xP .
a dickhead - who will not be named . dogged me today . ;@ . so after school , anthony , keneth , andy & i went out and sparked up on the middle of the street . yaah were cool like that . thank you anthony - owe you kiddo ;D
then , mercee , grace , samantha & i went cabraaamatta (H)
bummed , bought little knives (8
& taxed this and that .
crazy man on train ;S
faaaah, bastard .
PHOTOS PHOTOS PHOTOS ! YAYYYY .
LOVE;MELINDAAAA.

mercedes , grace & samantha - made a horrible day slightly less horrible .<3

Baby its your smile –

fah got bashed by that farvale bitch vy ;@ . bruise my whole arm , no worries babe . anyway , apprantly I have a ugly number – 13 . fcuk you alright ! . 8 8 8 . tongue piercing soon lads . suck it up . tutor homework can smd . and so can andy . full blackmail me in geo aye ? aye boy !? thank Joanne for the hello kitty ;D , cutest shieet out . LOVE YOUU . I like presents :) . office messenger tomorrow ! , bagsd a block whores . lets play pictionary . yayyyy . I haven’t been to a wedding in ages , I love weddings , there so glittery and pretty . andd you get all happy cause everyone else is happy . my throat hurts . sorry judy for pmsing . I swear deep down , I love you , really I do . I would like a new camera .

(L)MELINDAAA.

right , blog blog blog .
i should be science noting anthony ;@
but for you i blog .
anthony is stupid :)
and also short .
i used to think he thinks stupid delibrately , but lately ive noticed its all real .
anthony le is a doosh :)
you will not get married anthony le le le .

cause you never know , maybe shes afraid .

TRALALALALA. just got home :)
so today , ralph came over , after taking photos ralph got bored so he decided we should go out , so we did , roamed around sefton for awhile till we saw jake & then david & nicholas . andy came out . and i had to sit on the drive way watching the losers play bball . then we went to get ice cream - saw tylar ! and then trained it back to cheso . so ralph seeing as though i love you so much would you like to give me back my shit ? cause its all in your bag ;@ . argh ear lobe is bleeding D;
fah needa study .
nice to see my lovelys today :)
-RALPH
-JAKE
-TYLAR
you boys are the cutest [;

cant feel bad 'bout feel this good .

(L) MELINDAAAA.X

(8) I'm still fly , yeaaah , I'm sky high
& I dare anybody to try and cut my wings ;

this is dedicated to anthony le -
your gay gay gay , yeszhurr , you :)
your a dickhead too , wait till i tell andy what you've been saying .
shit talker .
& i do not wake up late .
you wake up early .
loser .
LOSER .
anthony le , don co hoc tuc la .
smart ass figure it out . (L)MELLY.

& remember there all the same

if you want it , dont let go until you have it . (L)

28/40 for science skills :)
mum was home today, shes so annoying . blah blah blah . threatend me with a spoon
--'
walked home with judy &+ selectives - cabraaaaa traain (H)
i like cabra .
i like it alot .
the losers - grace & evie , who havent stepped foot in the place , swear you girls are missing out on the best pho [;
and to evie - who dosent like pho and rather a vegemite sandwich , well , in that case your a wierdo baby .
evie you also owe me my movie . made me watch that crappy movie for like 2 hours .
what a nice way to kill time .
ralphie & i must get that bracelet , the one that i like :)
sorry jason ; i love you -

happy birthday joanne -
baby girl , i love love love you ! you mean the world to me - have the bestest time of your life & i'll see you on thursday bubby (L)
& david- my faggot :)
<3MELINDA.

If only we saw nothing but the truth .

right now im suppose to be doing history homework , its on Richard the lionheart ? I think that’s quite pretty , ‘ lionheart’ . I have like zip zap zop things to blog about . I need to study, fah full fail science if I don’t . study buddy anyone ? (8. my head hurts .hardcore throbbing after shower . fml .

blogging again .

thank you -
vitchet for photos
keneth for lighter
& peter for staying on the phone

<3 LADYMELINDA.

bastards . nitfm . sorry . x

& no matter what happens its just nature taking its course & destiny finding its fate

happy birthday andrew ma :)

uglyface.

you ugly faced bitch . mind your own buissness and i wont have to get out of my way to put you back where you belong . who do you think you are ? . keep your comments to yourself , how lucky you are , that i am not allowed to hit you , cause if i could , id do your ugly head in , pray to god that his on your side , cause no son of a bitch could help you once im done with my shit .
right, now that all of that is off my chest .

i can blog .
i have 2 pages of alegebra to do , but for gracie lee i blog , im not in that mood to type , so its hard to find things to blog about .
my dad likes to cook fish , we have to eat it like 3 times a week , because my dad believes no one can cook fish better then he . i hate fish . i dont care if omega 3 helps with anything . my dad pronounces omega as , ( me - ca ) . im like wth . -- '
asians ! (x
oh wth , i blog for grace & she dosent even stay long enough to read the end production that takes me a gaziilion years to type up .
dont ' ttyl ' me jenny dinh . asswipe , dog me for vietnam .
my old room is currently under construction .
how wonderful :)
sorry ralph ,i know what i did . ♥
hbd- cindy , ann & kathy


(L)MELINDAAAAAAAAA;

When it comes to relationships , I feel as if I have missed out on something , the extra cute-ness of relationships , the corn to the corny , I don’t think ive fully experienced it . not saying that I want to , its just the relationship never seems to be quite complete . am I making sense ?

So today , I didn’t even have time to do my hair when keneth & Anthony came over , so I said ‘ be at mine at 8 ‘ I just thought they’d never make it by 8 , you know how guys are always late ? & to add the extra metro-ness to Anthony by saying ‘ 8 ‘ I thought he’d be at mine at 9 . jeez, so they were on time , we loaded the drinks and set off to Gloria jeans (8
On the way I took a few photos if I were to know the fate of my camera I would have taken much more . sniff - . anyways then jenny , judy & I went to woollies to get bottles . yeahyeah .
At school – say It , your all thinking it . im bad luck . when it comes to drinks . any kind really , if its in my bag it happens to explode . and then my bag is drenched & andy ends up carrying my shit . my camera & I have gone through many many things. & now that its gone .. I feel so lonely . RIP.SMILESUNSHINE.(L) right , whatever , wont tell dad till he gets me new phone cause he might lecture me on irresponsibleness . I love singing on the bus , me & jenny (Y) . bus buddies – Raymond , jenny , judy , Andrew , Anthony , emahd & I . yayyyyy . threatre , boring . cabraaa – my beautifuls – jenny&jenny(: . drink drink drink . taste like lemon after awhile .
Walked andys dog with him , it has poo-ing issues . yeeuuck . wee , wee , wee ,poo poo . Kelly & I matching pants ;D
(L)LADYM;

dosent it hurt so much more , knowing what could of been but never became ?

im tired . how horrible . had the best maths lesson out . ahaha . (L) ANDY ! . had to run home with 12 cruisers from chester hill station . fmd . anthony you owe me . nothing will / can ruin tommorow .the main thing ive been focusing on lately is blogging . nothing much seems as important , not that yearlies dosent mean anything to me , its just I cant go to sleep at night properly without a proper blogging sesh , sad ? I know . I have discovered that somebody has used a image of me without my consent , I understand that some people would like to use images of me to attract and advertise for there etc etc etc , but puh-lease could you use a appropriate photo of me ? I mean , sharon gets a perfectly nice photo where as I , I have a orange in my mouth . a orange . I just realise my dad never opened the fathers day present that I got him this year . fah , I searched far and wide for those socks and all you do is chuck the whole thing near the noodle box in the kitchen , some father you are . mummy made speghetti with mushrooms , is that right ? it dosent seem right , but tastes nice . I saw jodie & bella today , you girlies are so beautiful & anthony agrees . anthony you owe me . I don’t like the way I’ve been feeling lately , im all happy then not so happy , ive been smiling for no reason, just smiling cause I want everyone to think im fine , that im happy, when really all I want to do is not feel at all ,to be immune against the things that hurt, but I force a smile .sometimes im even happy, truly , I can laugh & for the spilt second I would have forgotton about you . but it dosent last long , everything reminds me of you – you did something to me . you took something . id like it back . but we both know , that’s never going to happen . I need to stop relying on false impressions as something more , when it could be much less . maybe if I do a jenny , I wouldn’t hurt at all.

so while im wide awake , you have no trouble sleeping
cause when a heart breaks , no it don’t break even

<3LADYMELINDAAA;

its coming up , one month from that day .
maybe i'll call you .
maybe i wont .
maybe i'll tell you ,
how much i loved you .
maybe i'll tell you ,
i gave you my all .
maybe i'll tell you ,
that you made me feel things that I never felt before .
maybe I’ll tell you,
that you were the first
maybe i'll tell you ,
that it almost killed me,
the days that built up to that day .
maybe i'll tell you everything
everything that I’ve been keeping inside lately .
maybe I’ll tell you ,
that even though the ride was rough .
and screaming took up half of it
& the laughs weren’t frequent enough .
I’d do it over if I could .
A million times over .

(L) melinda isabella thanh ngoc mai tram .

you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .
you dont need him .

/ girl keep telling yourself that .

mt.

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I’ll be right there by your side – Wouldn’t it be lovely to think that someone would always be there for you ?

& so while I was sitting there waiting for the lady to make up her mind on whether or not she wanted gravy on her chips , I started making faces at her child who was sitting happily in her arms . she was the cutest thing . see , I have a love / hate relationship with kiddies . if you’ve met my brothers , you’ll understand why . they can be quite cute – then they drive me that close to insane . when I see other kids , I’ll put on the ‘nice’ voice and smile until I feel my cheeks hurt , I’ll ask them questions and compliment on mostly there eyes or hair . and only half of the time actually mean what I say ,of course all children are beautiful – everyone is beautiful , some more or less but in the end everyone is beautiful . anyway , I was nearly certain that this little girl I was making faces at was the prettiest baby I’ve ever seen, and im pretty sure her mum thought so too . I don’t remember being even half as pretty as her , she had the biggest blue eyes , and mine arnt big or blue . I can go on about what she has and I don’t , but then again I do that a lot . I like comparing , I compare like a crazy biatch on ice about everything , from boyfriends to houses , anything that is a possession , I know it isn’t a good thing but its almost natural to me , to see something and be like – ‘ oh I have that , but uglyier / prettier ‘ . the main point of this blog was to discuss why I want children one day , but I guess I over did myself , so, Id like to have kids one day . I want a few actually :) . my own army . ahaha , im going to take lots and lots of photos of and with them . I love photos . I believe they are the closest things to memories , I cant remember half the things I did when I was little , but apprantly judy had a video of me , dancing in a bikini when I was like 5 , what a freaaak . ahaha . the bikini had sunflowers on them ? O_O
Yes yes , back to subject , yeah , id like kids one day . the end -
(sorry to jenny who I couldn’t pick up the phone for – in order to make this blog I needed full concentration & to Ralph who I lagged with the replies )

(L)LADYM-

boy , you have no idea ;

attempted situps with mummy . fail . sighs -
worked like a crazy mad women today .
all body parts ache .
fmd .
picture above - the love i have for ' pinkie promises ' is indescribeable .
i make alot of people promise me alot of things-
but i dont half believe its a promise unless you pinkie it . :)
cbf to type . maybe later .
loveee lady m . (L)

That girl, is the gun to my holster
She's runnin through my mind all day, ay (8)

im not tired . so im going to blog . i love talking to vitchet on the phone :) . you make me laugh the way david & ralph makes me laugh . so now your one of my boys . (L)



rip.jacob richards -
i dont know you at all , but you were too young to be taken away .

saturdaysaturdaysaturday;

of course she's going to say she's over you -
but look into those eyes , you broke her .

today i woke up early, cause i had fcuk'd up dream, thats two bad bad bad dreams in a week . but the first one was more scary then fcuk'd . im not going to swear anymore, i dont like it when other people swear, so i dont think other people like it when i swear .

got ready & went to gloria jeans with vitchet , richie & ruby . copied homework then went to get easyway .

thank you -
david . who stayed on the phone with me while i was painting my nails and put up with my numerous trips to the toliet . it was lovely to catch up with you :)
vitchet . for going to gloria jeans & allowing me to have a 'sip' of your drink . just a sip mofo .
richie . for coming early , i know what a pain that is for you ;)
ruby . for picking up the phone in the morning . sorry sorry soryy ! \

i love that thingy my mummy made , it tastes nice (8
oh ralphie invited me to a drinkup -
i would , but . if you havent noticed darling , im not in the mood .
ive been kinda moody lately , lack of sleep it must be .
sighs -

lovelovelove-ladym(L)

faah, nearly had a heart attack cause blogspot didnt work . and im like full raging at the laptop . can you imagine me doing that ? (8
stupid homework, what a waste of a friday night , i could be sleeping , i love sleeping , if thats all i could do then i would .
today judy chucked a hissy fit , whata a lezzo .
i feel like phoning tonight ,i havent pulled a all nighter for awhile , fuccck, school is really back now . its beginning to sink in , im really not in the mood for school ; the studying and shit .
gala wasnt that bad , three girlies , made it worth it :)
kathy , dorothy & mena (L)
missing you - david & jayshun !
i shall blog later - study study study .

this isnt going to work , can you tell ?

i love you amy , baby girl head high <3

Truth of the matter is I never did you wrong, you’re going to miss me when I’m gone.

love ladym;x

there a things i'll never say & i know one day i'll regret it .
but building up hope just means a deeper fall .

& if you do too, just say so .

you give me this fuzzy feeling - do i give them to you ?

grace dosent blog . what a loser . today i put that missy on the invisible treatment cause she said i have no life . i do have a life . i just tend to waste my life on worthless things. i wanted/needed to go woolies today but noone would go with me & its like fudging burning , i dont like using the word ' fudging ' cause barakah uses it and it lost all purpose when she used it . dont you have those things , where you once liked until someone did/wore it then it just tuned you off ? . yeah same goes . no offence & all . id love to have a bitch sesh. with someone atm, id really like that . maybe i'll call amy & start bitching about everything . every motherf..ing thing . see, amy understands my need to bitch . ohh duncan my darling homo bestfriend , im sorry . faah someone cant keep thigs to themselves . last time im going to tell you something . when i say things like , ' ohh im never gonna talk to you again ' etc etc . i never stick with it . blah . i love days like today , im so lazy . all i did in tech was play freerice . i fed 1 & a half people ;D
omfg, cause of long i got told off by miss pitton , yeah so what if i can touch little boys, bitch ;@ . kelly hung up on me D; . the whore . shes proberly sexting tony .ahaha , viichet is gay :) . i love answering questions with a questions , if you've known me long enough you'll discover that .
' do you love me ? '
' do i ? '
:D
i love singing , alright shut up , so my voice can be utterly annoying . but but david says everyone can sing . everyone . EVERYONE . rightio , kelly thinks im the bestest best singing person ever .
i have stupid friends , good for nothing , i asked 11 people the same questions , 6 had no idea, 2 told me to google it , and 2 said a stupid answer and 1 , ONE , gave me a normal answer , fmd . oh wth , duncan's cousin is so hot , and duncan is so .. jokes ! (: duncan is beautiful & so is his cousin , *drools * theres a pink willy wonka nerd under my F8 key .

I like the way you walking if you walking my way,
im that red bull now lets fly away(8)


LOVEEE LADY M.

words are cheap;

it takes so little for me to fall head over heels for anyone /
well sorry babe , not this time
your sweet talk wont cut it .

(8) when it was just a fling before now, you’re the one
see all i did was blink twice, from my homie to my only

funny how things used to be .

baby , thought I needed you . but its gonna be alright.

right now , no one in this whole entire world could possibly be less then beautiful and to be truthful the girlies & boys that i know , are so beautiful inside & out , sometimes i wonder if i reach the standards that they so effortlessly achieve . corny ? . shut the fuck up .
im very happy .
actually , more then happy .
im super happy .
grace isnt online so i cant ask her for another word that means happier then happy .
pssst , i dont need her . ive got dictionary.com (8
ahaha, i love grace , i hope she walks home everyday so i can talk talk talk to her . shes so easy to talk to , for some reason .maybe cause were both incredibly nerdy & smart, see how similar people have the endless supply of things to talk about ? . must be . just has to be . melly & grace . buahaha.
so after school , i got bored . asked mercee to go out . she said yes . so there . we went roaming round cabra , like crazy bitches . getting high on redbull & winfield . oh baby . (L) MERCEE & GRACE .
And could anyone who has a heart shaped baking tray ( for cakes ) could you if possible , lend it to me , its for mummy & daddys 15 years anniversary :)

LOVELOVELOVE;LADYMELINDAAAA.

its the little things that mean the most ♥

i have a doofus as a bestfriend , see this morning at around 2/3 ish , he came to my house to be the first person to say happy birthday,yes he ran from his house to mine just so he can be the first to say 3 words . dear god , i love him . so then we sat on my verandah & waited for the sun to rise , even though it was soo very very cold , he stayed :)

today duncan & i were having a normal conversation when suddenly we began talking about gala days -

duncann says (10:00 PM):
*remember our first gala day....
duncann says (10:00 PM):
*..
duncann says (10:02 PM):
*u ran up to me and slap my ass O_O'then i ran off and fell off a fence....

he was thinking of my gentle touch ;)

love love love lady m <3

i was expecting it .
so , i'll be just fine .
did you know , i cried over you enough last night ,
i spent all night , just thinking -
i swear i felt my heart break .
& maybe one day, i'll tell you the whole story .
right from the beginning to the real end .
cause last time i checked our story was cut short to a happy ending
& in life , happy endings dont exist .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME .
(8) baby girl nothing can ruin your day , cause cause its your birthday .

thank you to david - the first person to say it & also sing it . & for staying on the phone , give fatty a kiss from me :)
starla - second person to call me , you remembered ! . thank you .
amy & mark - the texts , you make me feel special :)
RALPH - BUBAAAAAA ! YOU SHOW ME WHAT LOVE IS , YOU GAVE ME A BIRTHDAY I WONT EVER FRGET :)
jenny , kelly , kerrie , anthony , keneth , & richard - thank you , for the call & messages . love youuu guys a extra bit more (;
& to everyone else that remembered , thank you -
you made a shit day slightly better .
i love you all . (L) LADY M

ben is the bestest friend ever , just because ben is a ben & stacy .
two in one .
yeah baby ;)

tell me what you want me to do .

& maybe after all of this -
the date was left there just for the sake of it .

cause having something halfway is twice as hard as having nothing at all .

last night , i was scrolling through people to call , i needed to talk , it wasnt a want , not last night , it was a need . i just wanted to talk , let some of it out , as much as possible , i didnt know what i was saying , maybe it didnt even make sense , but ben listened . he stayed on the phone untill i got tired , untill the words that took me so long to say found its way out .
ben , thank you .
you have no idea what you did for me . (L)

fucking hell test my mother fucking patience you asshole

LADYM.

if you can lie , then so can i .

im going to stop kidding myself ,

thank you to everyone for today .
i love you guys ;

jenny
kelly
kerrie
raymond
keneth
andrew
anthony
edward
(L)

i understand .

i understand how this world works , not fully but enough .
i understand that people change ,
i understand that no matter how hard we hold onto something ,
if its broken then it is .
i understand that promises cant always be kept
i understand , that mistakes are hard to fix
& i understand if you decide to let go .

im sorry for what i did, i know how it feels like now .
to not get what your giving back in return

dick&ahalf.

thank you to the people who put up with me today - ( in order )

david
judy
evelina
grace

a extra thank you to judy who helped me through the long and tiring process of downloading some pirateship thing .
& grace who continued the random conversation with me

you lads kept me from talking to myself . much love (L)

i realise that blogging in the holidays may be the most lamest, sadest ,most utterly gay thing to do , but thoughout the holidays id like to change my vocubulary and also add as many words / use as many as possible . quote from starla -
'' *mel how could you do that shiet
*its like telling everyone your whole life ==' ''
so there . i have no life .
so today , i was sorting through photos cause i wanted to print them all & cover my ceiling with them , just to tick my dad off :)
i got all lazy half way and decided to leave it to another day, most proberly next holidays , or the next long car trip i encounter , i have been planning to print these photos since last year , there never seems to be the right time , right now im waiting for my dad to get home so he can make me pho . im sick of migoreng , argh .
geeez david , it takes time for things to be typed & even more time for it to make sense . i shall end this blog here . daddys home . PHHHO (8

DAVID IS SOOO AWSOME . LIKE OMG . DFAG & MGAY . (Y)

<3LADYM.

i love smiling at old people , they have such a warmth to there smiles .
thank you evelinda for letting me crash .
nothing much today /
villawood
maccas
etc etc /
evies'
food
sleep
phone
msn
:)

101th post :)
i love facebook, i find it nessary to inform others of my actions 24/7 .
all i ate today was migoreng .
im gonna have the worst pimples tomorrow , i cant be bothered to cleanse & moisturise , my whole body is aching and i have a headache . fmd . i swear baby sitting is like the worst form of abuse anyone can endure . faaah .
last night after mark hung up on me , i called jason . - im sorry i woke you up love ! . then jenny called me this morning and we were wcing trying to decide which shoes were better looking , etc etc . i think phoning with david is the best shit , we talk about everything , ahhaa . shower . buahahahahaaaaaa . isnt it great to have someone you can tell everything to ? :)
lovelovelove-lady m

hang in there :)

im back from camp . yay ! , camp wasnt so bad but then again it wasnt as good as id like it to be , oh well we cant have everything . my lord i came home to all this food , ohh i was so happy . my uncle has a new girlfriend , i like her very much . she cooks like everything for me , ahaha, what a sweetie . anyway so at camp michael broke my finger and when i told that guy , he was like , ' no melinda , your finger isnt swollen , its excess fat ' , excess fat my ass . i learnt to put up a tent , and sleeping on the floor is like , omfg . thank god , i have my bed to come back home to now . i have cuts and bruises all over my legs , when you see me , i'll tell you a story , each bruise / cut / mosquito bite , has its own tale . so at camp we made our on food and after like a gazillion years on the grill , the chicken looked sooo nice and minh was full proud of his chicken , but then it had like blood & shit inside it and i was like omfg , wth . im tired now . goodnight . lady m x

it isnt getting better .

i hate you . you made something change . you made that spark disappear . i cant have both i know . but you did it . you ruined it .

dear jason -

jason, you mean the entire world to me & beyond . please have a lots & lots of rest , and get well soon . i dont want you to be sick , not this sick . give me a time and i'll be at outside your door everyday that you need me . rain or shine . cause this is what love is . melinda&jason-us against the world .

i want to run - but only far enough for you to miss me (L)

i have a strong feeling about this-& if you know me . a strong feeling about something , anything is very un-usual for me . it means something new .

(isnt it cute ?) (L) MARK .

as of today , i discovered my mere presence and insignifcance to this world, there is nothing i put in and so therefore there is nothing i get out of this world. i simply rely on little quotes to get me through the day & if that fails i have my girls&boys backing me up -but wouldnt it be wonderful to be immune to the things that wiegh us down , the things that keep us awake at night and the things that make us feel insecure ?.
ive been sleeping alot , i have tutor homework as well, thursday came by so fast . i have camp on friday ,saturday & sunday .
goodbye lads - lady m

goodmorning :)
im at home today , so i have nothing better to do then to blog . im forcing my brothers to eat noodles ,cause i made it just for them, so therefore they must yummi-okie-licious .
walked all the way to chesterill to buy cake mixture , cause good for nothing boyfriend wouldnt do it . argh . anyways , spent most of the day talking to kelly on the phone & watching redtube at the same time . i wanna go shopping really bad , but it needs to be a girl that im shopping with . cause i dont like clothe shopping with guys , there really fustrating . but but then i wanna go moster with amy , soo then we can pick up skater lads (8
buahaha,
i like calling mark , 'the boyfriend' its very cute . even though we fight like crazy , but but , i think it adds spice to the pudding . dont ask . grace was on msn for like 2 seconds before she went off , what could she possibly be doing at home , so here i am singing by myself . how dull . im going to watch the boy in the striped pyjamas now .

love love love ladym

M021009M(L)

my mind lacks in the mental ability to write a proper blog today
so im sorry , i may not blog all holidays at this rate :)

yours -
lady m

but its over now ...
because in the past couple of hours , things havent been great, so my mind is not in the state to blog , its gone blah . so here goes to the random thoughts .
20 things about melinda;
1) i check out both sexes
2) im not bisexual
3) i believe in gay rights
4) i love rainy days
5) i love rainy days with hot chocalate
6) i learnt my 2 times tables in kindergarten
7) i knew how to spell 'birthday' in kindergarten
8) i dont believe in a god
9) i dont believe in people
10) i dont break promises
11) when i say 'swear' i mean it
12) pinkie promises mean much more to me then you think
13) i love cabramatta
14) i love asians
15) i love how asians are so typical
16) i hate the year 7's of 2009
17) im very bitchy
18) ive made lots of mistakes
19) i believe in one life
20) when i say sorry , half of the time ; i dont mean it

dont take anything to heart ;

lady m

im sorry .

in much consideration .

move on -


I ,Melinda can be the most forgetful duck you’ll ever meet, so to make my life much easier , ( blog wise ) , I decided I’d write notes of my eventful day , so when the time comes for me to blog, I wont spend forever and ever trying to remember what I had done in the last 6hours or so , so today in geography Raymond came up with the game ‘ look for the $5 in melindas bra’ so heres judy trying to grab what she wished she had . I no longer envy your soft flawless skin judy , cause everybody likes oranges ;D
So today that johnny boy , gave me $5 , nice old fella he is . Today we had the year 12 concert and to thinks that will be me in four years time. I sat next to the handsome Duncan & beautiful jenny , also behind MY peter , but I full felt rejected after declaring my love to Duncan , only to have a ‘ okay ‘ in return . Prick. So while jenny was drooling over HER peter, she was also dissng MY peter over the size of his head, which is NOT big, perfectly sized im very sure .
There are some songs that make me cry , songs that give me that “ sniffle “ , so while the year 12’s were singing , I got all teary cause judy is going to leave me soon , shes going all the way to … Tasmania )x
Anyway so I realised today I have the most ugly tans, t-shirt, shoe, thongs & flats. How yuck I cant wear any pretty shoes without that horrible tan line. Today he called . I hate it jager , I hate how your voice is so persuasive – you nearly had me . I hate how your utterly seductive your voice is . and whats worst is that I nearly forgot your voice , and now –today you had to call . I couldn’t go today jager , no reason in particular , I would have gone if you asked me , just like that I would have gone and god knows what we’d get up to , but I left you in the past and seeing you would mean re-visiting what took me so long to leave behind , im sorry if my excuse wasn’t good enough but that’s all I could come up with . Believe me when I say this, but it was so hard for me to say no. at least there’s a positive outcome for your call jager , you gave me something to blog about , I know how lame it is for me to write down points of things to blog about , but due my genetic lack of brain cells that’s the only way to go .
I feel particularly unloved today , how horrible .
happy holidays lads (: . (L) LADYM;

i will if i had the time, blog a whole lot about that girl judy tien . she is so mean to me . just today she crushed my dream . and also dared to threaten me with my boy . sorry judy if your face gets in the way with your relationships but mine dosent . goodbye ! ;@
ps. that car is mine also .

my daddy gave me a bedtime , so if i dont blog by 10;30pm on weekdays then i wont blog at all ,

i understand everything , dont make me feel foolish by saying i dont understand cause in actual fact hunny , i know much more then you'll ever understand . all i need is a second to explain myself , a minute to fix things up and maybe an hour to get things back on track , cause lately this has been too frequent , the fights for no reason, the unexplained absences , and sometimes i regret promising you from the very start . dont make me do it .
after scrolling through wedding photos, i came accross the decision that i do want to get married after all , with a gorgeous dress & beautiful bridesmaids . so as i began planning my wedding day , i realised for a short second that im much more of a planner then a someone who takes the chance and see what happens , i plan things in advance , i stress over little things that sometimes shouldnt be given a second thought , but worst thing is, after all the stress and planning, id proberly end up not doing it , so basically all the work was a waste of time but i do love the sensation itself , the buzz i get when im planning a party or what im going to wear to where , the feeling is almost invigoratingly sexy .
today judy was telling me how she sings herself to sleep . roflmaoo . judy singing . buahahaha, cbf . (L) LADY M

You ain't never gotta worry about a thang
'Cause I got you, I got you
you gon' live life proper
if you ever need a cure for the blues im the doctor,
(8)

take me away -

the funny thing is , baby we have history -
& no matter what happens
like you said from the very beginning .
' were going to be forever '

right now , nothing seems to be right . I don’t feel the happy cheerful self I was this morning, I went through the day smiling, okay so if you were like Abdul who saw me smiling you would have said something like ‘ look at this kid bro ,’ or jenny who was like ‘ the fcuk , why are you so happy ? ‘ well I was happy , I had a very nice sleep , but then between third & fourth period , I got tired so when I finally got home , I went to snooze land , until Abdul the great decided he would call me and wake up from my very nice sleep , after commenting on my croaky voice I told him to call me later ,then I realised I had missed someone very much today , so I gave that someone a call . after going on facebook , anoymonous asked me whether Ralph was okay after Sunday , to my surprise , I haven’t spoken to him since the incident so I gave him a ring-a-ding-ding, 56 seconds into the conversation he said something he shouldn’t have , so I pressed the red button . I really hope your satisfied , I wasn’t going to let anyone ruin my day today , but you’ve achieved the one goal that was so early accomplished . you did it congratulations . After msn-ing for awhile having Duncan & Amy as my only companions , I decided to do my science homework , I like writing, sometimes I have those moments where I just keep writing , jeeberish really , things that don’t half make sense but im fine with that , if jeeberish is what I write then jeeberish it will be .
Today I learnt to love inner beauty, whether someone is beautiful or not on the outside did not matter as much as the beauty beneath the skin - it amazes me the friendships I could have made if only I was abit nicer , but then again there are those really annoying people who I cant stand , by ‘cant stand’ I mean I really cannot , when I hear there voice , I could just throw my hand down there throat . im not naming anyone . k-k-k-a-a-a-r-r-r-e-n . whose that ?
LOLLL, at judy trying to ft her fist into her mouth ‘ this is how big a dick is Melinda, if you cant fit your fiest into your mouth then you can fit a dick in there ‘ I don’t think so darling , but if you say so then I’ll pretend I believe you . I now know how mean miss amy can be , yes im talking to you babe ,full bitch about everyone , but I love you (;
I hope that ‘girl’ who blogs like me stops, cause I don’t like it , if I have to , im going copyright my shit , you hear me ? you better hope you do .

love love love – miss m ;

everthing ;

We were never meant to be ; baby we just happened

if there were to be a reason, any reason for me to blog , this would be it , i now have competition . blogging should be a pleasurable activity , not a sport , where the winner takes all , but i dont mind . yeah babe your going down (:
certain sources vote melindas blogs owns your nooby ass anyday so why dont you go shove your head up where it belongs , love lots - lady m .

im eating chips because i have a craving for something warm but cause the thought of making noodles - the process itself , boiling water , waiting , etc etc . turns out to take much longer then the supposed ' 3 minutes ', so microwaving doritos is all good with me .

my periods were attempting to kill me today, no thanks doctor duncan , dont even bother bringing panadol for me , i slept most of english . i love english , speaking of english i should be reading shakespeare , jeez , his quite a odd lookin' lad , no grace dont ! omg , so because shes saving the environment she goes offline , i dont think the environment cares grace . i love jenny shes so cute , her & her beaver face , they make the walking blowjob & acne face couple look , seem sexy , far as im concerned if his treating my little girl right then i dont even care that his beaver face, acnce infeasted, four eyed pedo :)
just take my hand , and fall in love with me again . .

i have this thing for you - i cant quite describe it . but i hope i love you is enough . (L) mark .

he went offline - before reading this ...

lady m <3

rightio mate /

im sorry - but im impatient .
and right now , im not willing to wait for no one ,
not you , not me , not us .



right now , my english homework should be my main priority but , i cant help but blog ,i love blogging .Blogging gives me a sensation I cant quite describe, when I finish a post I feel all happy that ive got a whole load of shit off my shoulders, I loveeee it .
So that’s why I shall blog about my day . today . no I wont actually . I really cannot be bothered . but , I shall outline the ‘ main events ‘ ;D
Right, well id like to thank ..
bonbon , for the jacket ! my goddd , I dont know what id do without it <3
Keneth & Anthony – you lads saved my ass , even though you guys were such chickens whilst doing so .
Keneth ‘ im haveng a adrenelin rush ‘
Anthony ‘ fuck bro I think im having a asthma attack ‘
Melinda ‘ I need to change my pad ‘
Ahahha and the crazy man on the train . buahahahahahhaahaha .
*CHANGE CARRIAGES NOW *
the best part of the night was proberly the walking home part with the boys .
moon feast was too much drama , I mean I love drama – but not when mellys involved .
&
Ralph – right now , im sorry you got hit . but don’t going putting your shit on me , alright ?


ILOVEMERCEDES&GRACE .


LADY;MELINDA .

I know that our relationship ain’t right
And lately we just argue, fuss and fight
I know that it would be better
But I can’t have you never ever going away from me
I can't let you go
I don’t wanna say too much too fast
It don’t look like this love affair gonn’ last
I know that it would be better
But I can’t have you never ever going away from me
I don’t want you going nowhere
You’re the one for me
I’m lonely without you by my side
Baby I need you"

theres something wrong with the text box thing when i type , wheres graceey lee ? D;
today i really cannot be fuck to type but i will , only cause i have no life . im on the phone with david now , his such a darling , :)
lets get one thing straight before i continue - i hate private numbers , whatever the case i really hate them , i hate people who call me with private numbers - no excuses . this is to - chesterhill boy , thank you for complimenting me on my eyes but i truely hate them i shall see you tomorow you sexy beast , ben - faggot dont you ever use that tone on me . & lastly to the thrird person in a row who used private number on me - fuck you .
going on , today i ironed my uncles wedding shirt , see ? i'll make a great wife one day , yayayay . ahaha . im having a horrible case of breakouts . fmd . i finally got my monthly visit and for once im grateful to know it wont be ocming round to me on my birthday . phew *

<3 lady M

if you say so ,

okay so whatever , i had a alright day , i was like fully happy in the morning ; maybe its because that beautiful girl jenny , decided we'd eat timtams on the way to school and by all means thats fine with me , then i drank milk afterwards, cause i love milk , jennys drinking heaps of it cause she wants her boobies to grow , but im fine with mine , sure i want them to be amy size but , they can take there time - im in no hurry . i got my tests & assignment back , i got 82% in maths & 32/35 for geography . nerd ? i think so (;
so like judys a pig - like the fattest out . faaaar . eat all my gelato then eats all my chips , let me remind you missy who got the money - moi ' . thank you duncan <3 , it werent for those who donate to the ' melinda & judy appeal, i think judy & i would starve , thank you for your generousity lads .
i hate you andy , i wont lie about it , god i cant even stand your face , i dont know how we can both be in the same class room without me chucking a fit about it , if someone else dosent do it then i'll do it myself - im going to teach you a mother fuckign lesson , it should have been done a while back but it didnt , so there you get all cocky again , but hunny if i could , id shove your fucking dick down your throat and hope you choke on it
anyways , ive discovered something today but id like to keep it to myself cause ive learnt my lesson from getting carried away , you know how you get your hopes up ? and then the disappointment is always worse , so your better off just not hoping at all ? well screw the hope , ive got faith . yeah yeah suck it up
TRALALALA , i feel like singing , theres this song ... and it reminds me of ..>
MFLY .

& sometimes goodbyes really are forever .

i never got to say goodbye .
no kiddin'
i thought i said it the first time round
but you came back ,
so goodbye you -
no more memories for us ey ?
you'll always be with me
and if you ever need me .
you know where i am -

LADY M ;

Our hearts are drunk with a beauty our eyes could never see

Today is Thursday , music is currently on shuffle as I am not , for once feeling any mood in particular , however , music has the tendency to change my mood very quickly , so lets see how it goes . grace had commented on the way I write my blogs today, funny thing is I didn’t notice it until she pointed it out , ‘ your blogs are all about your day ‘ she said . so I thought about it , only losers with cock faces would want to read about my adventure through school , my mood swings and almost non existant love life , so after much thinking , I decided to talk about random shit about me . okay so who ever reads shit about me must be even more loserish & cock face – ier that normal , but oh well –
I mood swing a lot , a lot being every half an hour or so , one minute id be tired and sleepy, pissed off and grumpy , next minute id be as high as a bitch on ice and screaming at the top my bumbum , I don’t know if you guys know when your mood instantly changes but I can feel it when my mood begins to change , its horrible . I hate it . I used to think it was periods affecting my moods but after awhile im pretty sure , im stuck with it for life , its just one of ‘those’ things , like some people who are sooo damn ugly that no mother fcking plastic surgery would do any good , my moods are just as bad , no yoghurt is going to help . ( according to scientists in the united states , yoghurt is meant to help the brain function at a standard level therefore equalling the amount of some hormone that controls our mood ) see ? very smart . lets clap for Melinda ! anyways so I feel sorry for those people that have 2+ periods with me per day , eg . Kelly , judy & jenny . especially judy who has to put up with my ‘ touchy feely’ moods and then my ‘ hitting , screaming and swearing ‘ moods. I feel sorry for her . I really really do . and as for andy who I no longer call my friend – he knows what he did , I don’t care if he has to put up with my worst mood swings , making life a little bit harder for him will be my pleasure , makes me sound like such a bitch , but apparently I am . According to sources, im the bitchest of them all. Funny how many backstabbing whores are out there , but us girls know how to handle criticisms , shove the finger up and walk away . better yet girls like me & jenny who can get bastards that talk shit , hit id shove my head up my vagina hole if I were you .
I was extremely moody today , Im sorry mark , & those that I pms-ed at .
Thank you to david , who made my day –
Your long ass text messages make me feel special (:
I loveeeee youuuuu ! (L)
& grace is my best friend .ahaha .

maybe .

mark , its optus .

hey there michael jackson .

i know your question- but im sorry i cant give you the answer /

let me tell you a story -

once upon a day , a wedsday to be exact a group of losers by the name of ; anthony , keneth judy & melinda decided they'd jigg school as gala day was cancelled - and being stuck in a class room was like .. argh . with $ 10 + $2.50 , they caught a train to liverpool & met up with ralph , dillon , palo , david & isaac . they went to the park , shops , etc etc .

(even though david was being the biggest dog . farout . melinda still somehow loves him dearly ,maybe its cause of the 7 missed calls . buahaha . (x ) *

melinda taxed alot of shizzle because some gronk . cough . * ralph* . took her $ 10 to buy a deck that he didnt even SHARE . then his friend dillion decided that it would be sooo intresting to put pink zinc all over melinda , face to bum . all covered . my lord . '' hey its the big pink ball !'' . fuckers . then melinda wanted to climb the tree too cause ralph did but she failed . miserably so instead she put streamers all over the tree :)

then keneth & anthony left melinda & judy cause they didnt like ralph . . .

the rest was history . laaaa.at something o'clock melinda kissed all her boys goodbye & made her way with judy to the train station where she crashed at judys , and had PIZZZA . until judy decided to kick melinda out . the whore .

isaac is the cutest (;

'' judy i always thought you'd be tall , judy sounds tall '' says ralph

bauahahhahahaa .

judy owes melinda sour cream grain waves . :@

M2399M(L)