HURRY UP KENETH ! IM KEEPING THIS UP JUST FOR YOU !

AU REVOIR 2009 !

this is to the people who have been a part of my 2009 -
the people who have been there for me , the ones that kept my head up , the ones who stayed by my side , the ones who listened .
this is to the people who broke me , the ones who made me who i am today , the ones that hurt me most taught me something valuable & for that i thank everyone who was someone in my 2009♥

thankyou- to those who have stayed . - amy , jenny ,mercedes , grace , samantha , ralph ,jayshun , keneth & david
a; we've always been together , thick & thin . i feel honoured to call someone like you my friend , my bestfriend . thank you for sticking by me , listening to me and making everything seem okay . i thought i lost you this year ; when someone came into our lives but left as quickly as he enetered . but i didnt , our love proved to be much stronger then that .
j; we fight alot . we do . i wont lie . we argue about complete bullshit . but i love you . you make me laugh like crazy . you force me to smile . we have this endless supply of shit to talk about and a trillion plus one crazy things we do .
m; baby, i feel as if we've drifted apart during this year , high school more then ever proves to be a difficult time for both of us , and considering who we are and what we do , it feels different now , going out and just doing the things we used to . but babe , somewhere there , is the girl that i adore . so its fine to say were still strong for another year .
g; you would never guess , how happy you make me . your such a beautiful person in & out ; and even though its too late for me to be as pure as you , i have hope for my children one day , that they are just like you . your incredible .
s; babe , for the times you've stayed up just listening to my bullshit . my last minute phone calls & emergency breakups . my screaming , crying , shouting . my absolute everything . your my absolute everything .
when you girls are down , i may not be able to pull you up . but i promise to lay right next to you .
&
r; hunny buuuun sugaaa plum . i know this year was pretty hard . on both of us . i know i didnt give you enough time . i didnt give us enough time . but i want you to know , you'll always be a part of me . no matter where we are . remember our unconditional love ? . thats forver . i want you to know . that your the only reason why i smiled at the end of ocotober the 17th . you made my day . you did .
j; my big brother , i know right now its very hard for us to do anything but as soon as you whip those asses in hsc it'll be back to normal , wont it ? thank you for staying by me this year . i know i was so horrible to you .
k; you make me laugh . you make me smile . and i love how you make me feel when your around . your soooo nice to have putten up with me . for always coming out whenever i ask and buying my lunch for me ! . you mean the world to me & i hope in time we grow closer :)
d; your soo bright gee ! . i love the way you make my problems dissappear . its like KAAAABANG! and there gone . you make little non-funny things funny . i can talk about anything with you and you try hard not to judge me by what im saying . thank you soo much .

thank you- those who hurt me & left me .
e; you come first to mind when i think of lost . because you truely were the first person who left me and never came back . im so sorry the way i hurt you . we had a chance to fix things up but i ruined it . i hate you as much as im sorry . i hate you for teaching me something i didnt want to learn so soon in my life . i hate you so much but at the same time im so sorry that i broke us . and what we had .
m; you hurt me alot . but to say i never hurt you would be a lie . what i did to you - im so sorry . i really am . i loved you more then anything . lets leave it to that . no matter what , at that time , under the fireworks . i loved you more then you could ever possibly imagine . but now thats over and done with . i have to live with my mistakes . thank you , you taught me something i wont ever forget .
j; i thought we were really close , but i guess i was wrong . this year . you havent been a part of any bit of my life . i hate you for leaving when i needed you most . for when i needed a shoulder , you left me . you fucking said forever. its the people like you who make it so hard for me to learn to trust , to love and to care for . the doors shut . locked . dont come back to me .
j&k; you girls meant the whole world and beyond to me at one point , i could always talk to you , no matter what it was . i could always tell you things that i couldnt ever tell anyone else , no that its different , im thanking you for being there for me . even though ultimately you girls left . i cant say its not for the best . your happiness is all i want .
thankyou-to those who came into my life .
linda , helen & tn ; all of you are equally amazingly beautiful , thank you for taking care of me this year . im so sorry to have left without a proper goodbye . but know i love you all . with all my heart .
t&s; thank you for making me laugh when all i really wanted to do was cry . you dont know how much i adore you both .

& those who've tried to break me . im immune to your bullshit . so baby you can try all you want . im bulletproof .

i wish everyone a happy new year . i loved 2009 . & i only wish for better in 2010 .
stay safe during the holidays & smile no matter what the life throws at you .

note - i have profread this post like a gazillion times - so i assure you everything here is intential . i tried my best to conceal names as to not offend anyone . but if you happen to spot yourself here ; & dislike what i have written about you . then hunny go ahead and smd . i really cannot care less :)

melinda tram -

MARK , SON & BRANDON ! I THINK YOUR SEXY .

NOTE; I AM CURRENTLY PREPARING NYE SPEECHES ;
RIGHT SHUT THE FUCK UP IM COOL .
I WILL ALSO BE DELETING THIS BLOGSPOT ON THE 1STJAN2010.12PM.
THE SPEECH WILL BE PUBLISHED ON THIS BLOGSPOT FOR 12HOURS ONLY . FROM 1STJAN2010-1AM
SOOOOOO NIGGUHS . YOUR GONNA HAVE TO READ IT QUICK .
I WILL SPEND A INTENSIVE 2 HOURS SUMMARISING EVERY SINGLE PERSON WHO HAS AFFECTED ME THIS YEAR . MENTALLY PHYSICALLY & EMOTIONALLY . CAUSE EVERYONE LEAVES A MARK . MAKE IT DEEP OR NOT . I LOVE YOU ALL . THANKYOU FOR 2009 . BABES BRING ON 2010 ~!
-MELINDA THANH NGOC MAI ISABELLA TRAM .

SONISSHORT.

NO DICKFLOP YOU SUCK MY DICK .

so baby tell me ; is this the end of the ride ?

tell me we wont stop here . tell me we wont be left as unfinished . id like a ending .

tumblr me :)

fuckfuckfuck . fuck you !

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :@

i miss you . will you call ?

needles hurt
i slept
5hours
i took panadol
slept abit more
another pandol
it hurts
emotionally and physically
im dying
i hope you care

merci son ; for staying on the phone . even if all i did was rage and swear at you . thank you :)

my dickflop appears to have gone missing . where are you faggot ? :@

postponed trip to melbourne yuh .
looks like im staying for nye homies (H)

happy birthday peterfly (L)

booking hotels is fcuking bullshit ;@

so , forecast was on sale
50-80% on all handbags
$20 bucks biaatches .

julies over
i love julie
she thinks im wierd
she touches me
she made me do sit ups
shes scary sometimes
but i love her :)

im spending christmas eve at my uncles/cousins .
i will blog tonight
10minutes till christmas
i love the atmosphere on christmas eve
i cant complain this year , its different but i dont mind it .
my christmas dinner was chicken curry , sausages with bqq sauce & heineken , chocies and lemonade . my single uncle cooked . BUAHAHAHA .

m- wheres the tomato sauce ?
u- tomato sauce ?
m- yeah the red sauce
u- you mean chilli sauce ?
m- no tomato , TA MAY TO
u- CHI LLI
m- ==' nvm

so i took a break off blogspot to reply to messages on msn , i love msn (8
merry christmas blogspot 2009 ! yeeeeeeh(x
its just me at my uncles now
my mum left me .

im going to blacktown now .
goodbye :)

2SJ8DH&5DP.(L)

so tell me how im going to fly with a broken wing .. (8)

fruitloops =3

did you get my text seaweed ?

i like nice people :)

they got hair cuts ! :)

just believe you could do better ..

hehehe..i blogged alot (8

call me if you intend on killing time with me .

i like snow globes

i like seaweed :)

some men have the hairest legs . BUAHAHAHHAHAAA.

grace .. ?

tell me what to do ..

i hate christmas .

shemustbesobeautiful..thatgirlhetalksabout/

OIYOU!
WHATTHEFUCKDOIDOWITHMYHEARTNOW?

im on a mission to find someone beautiful ..

& you'll be the one she cant resist
- she'll be the tenth girl on your list

i never planned to fall in love .

aww baby girl ; i know its hard .
i cant even assure you , that your going to be okay
cause things like this , you really have no idea .
i know you miss him .
but hunny , you just keep that head of yours up .
horrible things happen , dont they .
you just hold onto what you have .
i love you amy <3

(um) M!SS DIN.     she wolf     says (12:47 PM):
*like after i hung up
- LADY MELINDAA   A     ; 97 (yn) says (12:47 PM):
*its okay babe :)
(um) M!SS DIN.     she wolf     says (12:47 PM):
*i went to get food
- LADY MELINDAA   A     ; 97 (yn) says (12:47 PM):
*food ?
(um) M!SS DIN.     she wolf     says (12:47 PM):
*then i looked at my comp
- LADY MELINDAA   A     ; 97 (yn) says (12:47 PM):
*YOU HUNG UP ON ME FOR FOOD ? I SACRAFICED MY SLEEP FOR YOU !

that bitch .

hey keneth are you reading this ?
BUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

“Forgive me for liking you too much, I’ll forgive you for not liking me enough. Forgive me for the loud racing of my heart, I’ll forgive you for not hearing it. Forgive me for finding you amazing, I’ll forgive you for never noticing. Forgive me for wanting to be with you more than anything, I’ll forgive you for avoiding me. Forgive me for being so pathetic, I’ll forgive you for taking advantage of it. Forgive me for not being able to let go, I’ll forgive you for never holding on.”

i have a i love you list on msn . if your on it . i must love you :)

for you - i'll be looking from the stars .

so now that you know how a broken heart feels like ;
tell me was it worth it from the beginnning ?

dear ______ ;
i know i cant help you , but i know i should be trying . thing is im not . i cant . there no explaination as to why . i cant think straight . things that are coming out , they dont mean a thing . i know your feeling like shit , because im feeling the exact same . some sister i am . and you were there for me every step of the way . im sorry for being so worthless . i really am .
iloveyou-ihopeyoufeelbetter.(L)

CONGRATULATIONS MEGAN&RAYMOND .
i think its about time :)

im sick , pass me the butter menthols love .

michael & jeramie :) / dinner

if only all boyfriends did this .. :)

• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
• give her one of your hoodies to wear so everyone knows shes yours.
• leave her cute text/notes.
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• forgive her for her mistakes.
• look at her like she’s the only girl you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she’s sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she’s sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she’s important.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.
• and when you tell her, love her like you’ve never loved
someone before.
• and,when she runs up at you crying…the first thing you say is…”who’s ass am i kicking today?”

i want to be the last thing on your mind before you sleep .

loving you is like lighting a candle in the wind ..

how im feeling , i dont even know .

I can't catch my breath cause you take it away.
The best writer in town could not find words to say.
How there's so many things I want to get to know.
I wish that I could stay but I got to go so I'ma call you tonight. (8)

awww , (x

sweetie your beautiful

im standing on a line between giving up & see-ing how much more i can take ;

dear ________ ,
all i want to know is if you feel the same , cause what your playing around with is my heart . if you dont know what the fuck your doing then please drop it. it'll break , sure , but atleast i'll still have the pieces left . you confuse me , you really do . & i hate confusion . say it straight . please .
love always - melinda ♥

.. so today was frickinn' crazy ass hot , but i wanted to go out . so the beautiful shyndie volunteered to put up with me for a couple of hours . YAYYYY . trained it to villawood . meet up with mercee,grace&+ friend . theeen went to eat ice cream with shyndie , ohh loved the ice cream ey shyndie ? sexy shieet . trained to cabra so miss shyndie can buy cancer sticks , waited for honky ponky , the tanktanktank boyfeee [;
DOGGED , him )x for chesterhill/ & bankstown . ahaha :)

im not exactly sure whether i should be happy or not . sure i had great time with shyndie & girls , but theres always got to be something ruining everything .

7DEC.09

To tell you the truth I don’t have much to offer. But I’ll still give you everything I’ve got, even if it’s barely a thing at all. I’ll give you late nights, long hugs. Someone to talk to, someone to care for, someone who will always be there. A hand to hold, somebody to lean on. And if that’s not enough, just know you have all of me. I hope that’s enough. (L)MELINDA.

THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT .
full wanna go out but the weather is like ugly . fml . i want to go out ;@
ARGHHHHH ;@
ralph ralph ralph , where are you ? :(

baby m ♥
i know your hurting , but girl you dont need anyone that dosent need you .
you'll make it through this one , like you made it through every other one .
i love you , with all my heart i do .
im here , rain or shine :)
cause this is love - 97 (L)

Boy: I have two words to tell you.
Girl: What?
Boy: I love you.
Girl: Isn't that three?!
Boy: No because 'you and 'I' count as one

i got to let you know , i got to let you know -
that your pretty little smile is incredible (8)

happy birthday baby vy ; too bad your in vietnam eating frog legs and not here on my bed with me [; ♥

MTRAM(L)

I know you miss him and I know you think you can’t be without him. I know he told you he loved you and I know he said he'd never leave. I know although you knew you shouldn't have believed that, you did and I know you want him more than anything. I know you spend extra time doing your makeup and hair perfect just in case he looks your way and I know secretly, you want to bump into him anywhere you go. I know you get that feeling when you walk past him and I know you just want him to look your way. I know he called you his baby and his number one and I know he told you he loved you at the end of each of his texts. I know he told you after he's caused you so much pain. I know your face lights up at the mention of his name and I know that you were his world and I know he made you happy. I know you re-read the saved texts from him that you should of deleted ages ago and I know you can’t figure out what’s making you still like him so much even you’re scared to talk about him to your friends because you don’t want them to know how amazing he is. I know you still get that tingle feeling if he so much as looks as though he's looking your way and I know that the whole day you'll be analyzing what that look meant. I know you know he used you and I know you always forgave him for all his faults no matter what. I know you smile bigger, talk louder and laugh more when you see him anywhere near and I know that’s because you just want him to notice you again. I know you compare every guy to him and I know you'd do anything to prove your love for him. I know you take out his mistakes out on everyone but him and I know you don't mean to. I know you read your saved msn conversations you had with him every night and I know you cry every time. I know you think you won't care for anyone as much as you care for him and I know you tell everyone you’re 'obviously' over him. I know that you don't know that I can see right through that. I know you listen to the songs that remind you of him every night and I know you cry yourself to sleep. I know you'd do anything to be perfect for him and I know if it meant you had to stab yourself the next day after seeing him, if it meant spending a whole day with him, you'd do it. I know you can't figure out what’s so different about him to all the other guys you've been with previously and I know he's the reason you look in the mirror too much. I know you get that feeling every time you get a text, just because of the slight chance it might be him and I know anyone can see the hurt in your eyes when you find out it isn't. I know you can’t figure out why he left you and I know you'll never get an answer to that question. I know that. Trust me.

MTRAM.

FORGET ME NOT .FAAAAH TEEE YOUR A FRICKINN' CUTIE ! [;
ahaha, full use that sweet voice on me , sorry i wasnt talking much /= ♥
i cant sleep for shit . fml / tutor hw :@
ear hurts / thank you miss jenny for the spray :)
dads buying food for me , ahahha . YAYYYYY / food (8
cabraaaa tommorow (H)
junkie aye ? i knw your thinking it . spit it out .
miss fruitgnet can smd , ugly whore .
ahahha , no arvo ;D
dying hair soon , fuck the piercing D;
ILOVEGRACIELEE&JENNYDIN&ANDYVO(L)

melly.

See, I just wanna hold you
& never let you go boo,
Girl we could do, whatever you wanna go do,
Shorty you could be in control (In control),
Whenever it's raining,
We'll just stay in,
Kiss and playin' and talking till the AM comes,
I got too much to show, (8)

03DEC09;

I lied when I said I didn’t know what I wanted. I wanted you to be happy, with or without me. And I lied when I said I wanted someone else, I wanted you to fight for us, like I’ve been doing since day one. And now that I’ve lost you, I’ve been lying to myself, I’m not better off. I miss you. ♥ melinda

YEAH MOFO 5TH&6TH PIERCING . YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH ;D

Your Love Is Like Weed, Baby Got Me Stoned (8)
I laugh too easily & I forgive pretty quickly . I hate that about me . I cant pull straight faces , even though I should , there are those people who have the ability to make me laugh my ass off and make me forget that im suppose to be angry with them , id be like faaaaah im angry with you brooo ;@ , but , id still be laughing ? .
shouldn’t have eaten those m&m’s full give me tummy aches & shit .
my lip is bleeding . eww .
I believe in gay rights .
I do .
I believe that everyone has the right to love anyone.
skies the limit .
(L)MTRAM.

the conversations between us ; tell me im not the only one reminiscing /
if we werent the way we were , if you werent the way you were . then i wouldnt be missing us , missing you . this much .♥

TONGUE PIERCING / WEDSNESDAY 2WEEKS / BANKSTOWN / 65$ :)

love can smd .

' Where my heart still is, I admit I'm not too sure ' - conversations between us

tell me a story . where theres a girl and a boy . where they fall in love and then live happily ever after . hah ! . you want me to tell you a load of bullshit ?

girl: hey
boy: how are you?
girl: im fine, how are you doing after we .. you know broke up?
boy: im alright .. i still love you.
girl: i loved you, and you let me fall.
boy: i tried to catch you i promise.
girl: yeah you tried .. but i slipped through your fingers.
boy: its because your so delicate. if i could i`d pick you back up and never let you fall.
girl: its too late.
boy: no its not.
girl: whatever, your just using me.
boy: id never use you, i love you.
girl: why do you love me ?
boy: because i just do. because your perfect.
girl: but i dont want to be perfect, nothing in this world is perfect.
boy: fuck the world, your perfect to me.
girl: *ugh, shrugs her shoulders and walks away*
*girl trips over rock, and boy runs to her .. catching her before she falls and hurts herself. meanwhile, boy falls down with her in his arms scraping his knee on the hard cement badly*
boy: see, i told you id always catch you.
girl: i knew you would.
The girl just pretended to trip over, seeing if the boy would catch her. she wanted to know if he would get hurt for her and keep his promise. he did, and thats why they were in love. because they both had faith for one another and believed in the love they had*.

dont ask me where i get this shit from . - melinda