I’ll be right there by your side – Wouldn’t it be lovely to think that someone would always be there for you ?

& so while I was sitting there waiting for the lady to make up her mind on whether or not she wanted gravy on her chips , I started making faces at her child who was sitting happily in her arms . she was the cutest thing . see , I have a love / hate relationship with kiddies . if you’ve met my brothers , you’ll understand why . they can be quite cute – then they drive me that close to insane . when I see other kids , I’ll put on the ‘nice’ voice and smile until I feel my cheeks hurt , I’ll ask them questions and compliment on mostly there eyes or hair . and only half of the time actually mean what I say ,of course all children are beautiful – everyone is beautiful , some more or less but in the end everyone is beautiful . anyway , I was nearly certain that this little girl I was making faces at was the prettiest baby I’ve ever seen, and im pretty sure her mum thought so too . I don’t remember being even half as pretty as her , she had the biggest blue eyes , and mine arnt big or blue . I can go on about what she has and I don’t , but then again I do that a lot . I like comparing , I compare like a crazy biatch on ice about everything , from boyfriends to houses , anything that is a possession , I know it isn’t a good thing but its almost natural to me , to see something and be like – ‘ oh I have that , but uglyier / prettier ‘ . the main point of this blog was to discuss why I want children one day , but I guess I over did myself , so, Id like to have kids one day . I want a few actually :) . my own army . ahaha , im going to take lots and lots of photos of and with them . I love photos . I believe they are the closest things to memories , I cant remember half the things I did when I was little , but apprantly judy had a video of me , dancing in a bikini when I was like 5 , what a freaaak . ahaha . the bikini had sunflowers on them ? O_O
Yes yes , back to subject , yeah , id like kids one day . the end -
(sorry to jenny who I couldn’t pick up the phone for – in order to make this blog I needed full concentration & to Ralph who I lagged with the replies )

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