mfly .

we cannot force anyone to love us -
all we can do is be someone who can be loved .

i refuse to think i am lovable - or even a inch close to the meaning . its not just that i dont know the meaning of the word but its such a difficult ' thing ' to grasp .
little girls going around with there boyfriends saying they love eachother and last a couple of months , thats what love is suppose to mean to them . others go chasing it all of there lives and a few months - weeks even is the closest they'll ever get to it .
i doubt i'd be able to catch love . i love the chase . but the result - the consequnce . im just not into that shit .
i can list a trillion things why im not lovable , a billion things why i cant be loved . and another million things why im not loved . but i have a life , or somewhat close to one where i believe i do .
i hope one day , id find someone whose just as unlovable as me -
maybe the negative & negative will possibly become a possitive . <3

MFLY.